Today, I realized that I am no robot. The stress brought up by my personal problems, and somewhat lack of sleep and rest has already taken its toll. I broke down and feel so tired.
Around five o'clock this morning while in front of my laptop, I suddenly felt a sting pain on my chest while breathing. It's alarming that I cannot breathe a full air anymore. I ran to the pantry to drink water thinking that it would ease the pain, but it only made it worse.
I sat in front of the sink as I saw my officemate with blur sight. I thought I'm dying. I shed tear.
As minutes passed by, I can slowly feel relief in breathing. Sinus tach is the culprit as this has already happened to me last year. It's the fast palpitation of the heart as a result of exercise, excessive stress, anxiety and fatigue. But the chest pain, the weakening of my body and the abnormal breathing is not a good sign.
I know this is already the repercussions of taking too much of these anxieties and problems which is building up inside me which I need to take a rest and slow down a bit.
But I hope, this, too, shall pass.