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"What coffee do you want so I can order while waiting?" I asked you through text.

"Mocha caramel would be nice," you replied.

"Ok, I'll get you one hot cup since it's raining outside?" I asked again.

"Sure! I'll be there in 10 minutes…"

I am shaking this early afternoon. The mix of emotions is fleeting that I cannot cast a single sane thought.

This is it. After months of waiting, I can now see you face-to-face. I long to see you on this day, your smile, your voice, your eyes, your hands holding mine, you're everything, I want them to witness before me.

"I'm already here at the ground floor. I'll be there in a few. I'm so excited to see you and hug you finally."

My heart skipped a beat. My face turned red and I can feel the blood rush from my heart to my veins. I'm so clueless how things will turn out once you see me.

"Okay. I'm excited too but also afraid a bit. I don't know how you will react if you see me. I'll remove my glasses so I won't see you coming and if ever you'll get disappointed, you can run away…" I told you.

Hence, I removed my eyeglasses as what I told you. I am shivering and sweating. I am praying that hopefully everything will be right. I flew to Manila last night to see you and just in time as visit the city for a business trip. Like what I promised to you, I'll try to cross oceans and continents only to be with you, because you complete my other half.

"Hey, andito na ko." I looked at the person in front of me. There I saw you smiling and your arms wide open waiting for a hug.

I threw my arms toward you and hugged you tightly. This is what I wanted to feel. And finally, I whispered in your right ear, "Mahal na mahal po kita, buti dumating ka na…"

Starbucks EDSA Shangri-La. June 6, 2009.




I chanced upon my defunct blog and saw this post that I didn't publish because I wasn't brave enough to do. I can still remember that day where I felt I was the happiest man on earth. And without any clue, all our hopes and dreams will be shattered in just few days…

HOWEVER, as I read this post, though I can still remember you, the feeling I have before is now forgotten. I already started a clean slate and I am thankful that I found someone who completes me.