A Tuff Life

Thinking of Job Hopping? Think Again

2012-01-30T21:10:00.000+08:00

"Employers want to see your progression at a company, whether it's up or across an organization."

Dan Schawbel

Read this:

How job hopping can hurt your career

BFN

2011-12-27T02:46:00.000+08:00

Why do tears fall and lips quiver every time we say goodbye?

I will always treasure the long talks we had, the way we fought our insomnias and bashing how old and young we are.

You will always be in my heart.

Bye for now…

Team Beech Conquers Ilocos

2011-12-13T16:46:00.002+08:00

After a year of planning, we already made a one big vacation of our team in Ilocos. It was 4 days away from work (well, except on the first day).

Thanks to my team buddy, @therichieyu, who documented everything. When I saw this video, I had goosebumps and a fleeting excitement. It was a fun-filled and bonding days with the team albeit the stormy weather in Pagudpud.

LAKBAY-PAKAY

2011-10-17T19:05:00.002+08:00

ang paglalakbay ay hindi pangsarili lamang. minsan, mainam din na ang layunin ng iyong paglalakbay ay para magdulot ng tuwa sa iyong kapwa.

ang post na ito ay entry para sa pakontest ni bulakbol na "tara na't magbulakbol" :)

taken during the A Time to Give Back Project | Adams, Ilocos Norte | December 2010. Link here.

The Room at the 34 Floor

2011-08-17T11:58:00.002+08:00

The weather's gloomy. I was sitting alone in the room when you showed up. I was busy replying my emails and didn't bother to take a glance on you.

You asked me if you can join me inside as you wait for your reservation on the other conference room. 'Sure!', i replied still busy on my laptop.

You sat across the other side of the long table, just in front of me. We were silent then. Only my fingers tapping the keyboard and the way you shove your stuff from the bag are the only sounds that can be heard.

I took a pause and glanced at you. You seemed bothered that something is missing, your token perhaps.

You looked back and smiled but i can still see the tension in your eyes.

I was dumbfounded. Your smile, the way you purse your lips, just perfect.

The only i blurted out then was, 'Want some coffee? I'll get one for myself in the pantry and you might like to have a cup too.'

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I'm on my way now to the other office as i write this post.

And i just want to tell that i enjoyed chatting with you. You just made my day, really.

I hope to catch you again inside that room on the 34F. Anyway, that's my den whenever I am in Ayala.

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opinyon

2011-08-08T23:49:00.001+08:00

Hindi ko alam kung gaano na kalabo ang pananampalataya ng ilang Pinoy sa Diyos.

Marahil ay nabalitaan nyo na ang kontrobersyal na obra ni Mideo Cruz na Poleitismo at kasalukuyang naka-dambana sa CCP.

Maraming bumatikos dito lalung-lalo na ang Simbahang Katoliko. Subalit marami din ang nagsabing ito ay isang sining at freedom of expression.

Sa mga taong nagsasabing ito ay isang sining, hindi ko alam kung saan nyo pa hinuhugot ang inyong lakas ng loob para ipagmalaki ang isang kalapastanganang ito sa imahe ng Tagapagligtas.

Sige nga, sabihin mo kung paano naging isang sining ang pagpatong ng condom sa Krus? Tama bang maglagay ka ng imahe ng ari ng lalake sa Kanyang litrato?

Di kaya nananadya ka lang na asarin ang Simbahang Katoliko?

Sana naman ay bigyan ng respeto ang ating Hesus. O kung hindi ka naman naniniwala sa Kanya, sana irespeto mo ang Diyos ng iyong kapwa.

move, learn, eat

2011-08-05T04:37:00.002+08:00

Who doesn't like travelling especially if it is for leisure? I guess none of you will raise your right hand.

I saw this cool video online and i thought that it's worth sharing. Enjoy! :)

MOVE from Rick Mereki on Vimeo.

LEARN from Rick Mereki on Vimeo.

EAT from Rick Mereki on Vimeo.

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I LOVE MANILA...

2011-08-01T12:38:00.000+08:00

I saw this article in the Young Star section of the Philippine Star and subsequently, on Dom Jullian’s post.

Apparently, there are so many opportunities abroad that lures most of us to work there. However, weighing down the pros and cons, I’d rather want to stay and live here in manila or in the country per se.

Here are my top 5 reasons:

My family and good friends are here. I don’t have to spend a lot of money to buy a plane ticket just to see them. I can knock on their doors anytime I want.
The weather. I like the weather here. Singapore is too hot and Paris is too cold. Consequently, we don’t experience the harsh season of winter. Just cool and sunny weather.
I can have my favorite dish from mom with just one call. J
Commuting around the city is cheap. A taxi ride in Tokyo or Hongkong would cost you a thousand bucks.
I feel safer here than any rest of the world.

LITRATO

2011-07-21T18:14:00.004+08:00

Bakit kaya laging nakakatuwa at nakakatawa na pagmasdan ang mga litrato ng kahapon?

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THE DOUCHEBAG

2011-07-20T18:37:00.001+08:00

I’m currently in whole week training and sort of a refresher for me. It is fun connecting the dots on what I had experience on my previous projects with the theories that are being discussed during the sessions. I was like having ah-ganun-pala-yun moments.

But I won’t meddle on that part which is of course it would be very technical to write here. Instead, I will talk about this classmate-from-hell that annoys the trainer and the rest of the class.

In our industry, I can say that he’s an expert. He’s been hopping around with big companies and a well-experienced with the technology we are doing. He’s a bit arrogant and boastful, too.

On our first day, he told the whole class that he will be out of the country in the coming weeks for business trip in Singapore. He also told the whole class that he already had big projects with his previous employers. Like, ‘Duh, we don’t care your business, man!’.

Later today, this classmate-from-hell showed again his douchebag attitude. He asked questions to the trainer and apparently it was well answered. He just can’t get it even he’s been already spoon-fed. We, the trainees, looked at each other and irked with the situation already. We are not sure if he’s slow or just trying to annoy the whole class.

Private messaging popped and everyone was talking about the situation. As expected, everyone in the class was annoyed including 2 expats.

Not until one stood up from the class, in a high tone of voice discussed everything to this douchebag in a level he could understand. Apparently, this brave soul is someone that is very well experienced with the program.

When he finally understood it, he shrank to his seat and kept silent. All eyes on him, he felt violated but he deserves it.

SOCIAL NETWORKING ETIQUETTE

2011-07-01T18:04:00.000+08:00

Watch this video, tamaan na ang tamaan!

Pet peeve na kung pet peeve lalo na sa mga mahilig mag-FIRST sa mga comments section.

FORGETFUL OR STUPIDITY?

2011-06-30T23:13:00.001+08:00

I switched my laptop. Opened my emails but didn't read them, I just let them to flow in and flagged the important ones.

I closed the lid. I went to the pantry with my big bluish mug with the design of the windy city which my good friend bought it when she had a business trip there.

It's raining outside, the wet season has finally arrived. It didn't stop raining since yesterday. The intrepid warm wind already subsided. Just perfect, it's my weather.

I took a cupful of chocolate from the machine and sipped. The warm brown liquid engulfed my thirsty orifice.

I sat down on one of the chairs with comfortable cushion and watched planes on their final approach to the airport. I observed people from all walks of life striding through the sidewalks, probably going home after doing their normal routine in the office.

At that moment, I took the liberty to think what has transpired during the past few days.

It was so busy. I recalled how I received a commendation, how I received another shitty request, how I fell asleep during a call.

Something was missing. The problem was I only recalled those that were work-related, nothing personal.

I checked my calendar, it's the 28^th of June. The list is filled with accepted meeting invites.

Until I realized, 8 days ago, I didn't greet my dad a happy birthday.

How come to forget someone's special day? Stupid me.

BIJOKE

2011-06-27T16:33:00.002+08:00

Syempre nainggit kami sa mga Pinoy bloggers na based sa Singapore sa araw-araw (ARAW-ARAW TALAGA?!) nilang gimik. At dahil sa na-inspire (?!) kami sa kanilang mala-engkantong boses sa kanilang bijoke, napagkasunduan ng mga hob bits na makigaya din.

And as always, laging treat ni Glent0tt kasi super mayaman sya nung araw na yun. Kaunting udyok lang namin ay pumayag na syang ikaskas ang kanyang credit card sa Red Box (at pati na rin sa Friday's).

Kaya bilang isa akong inggiterong bangus, ipopost ko na ang video namin habang kumakanta!

Disclaimer: Watch at your own risk. Iwasang ibuga ang iniinom na kape habang pinapanood ito. Ilayo din ang mga bata dahil hindi angkop sa kanila ang nasa video. At marapat lang na gumamit ng earphone para hindi kayo marinig ng katabi nyo na nakikinig ng mga kumakahol na cute guys. lol!

the man who can't be moved|the script

breakeven|the script

kthanksbye!

THE SOCIAL NETWORK

2011-06-24T16:47:00.005+08:00

In the advent of social networks, it's been very easy to communicate with your friends. With just few clicks and taps on your mobile and computers, a message is sent. I was eager to use when I had my first hand with the so called Twitter and Facebook. It feels so good to be part of the virtual network.

These applications play an essential part on our daily lives. Some people would check MMDA's tweets before leaving to office, some would check-in along EDSA or to check online newspapers. Some would open first their twitter rather than their work emails. Some would shout out that they are sooo late or wasn't able to sleep at all. Okay, I am partially guilty.

But recently, these things going on are paving out my usual daily routine. My usual fad has now become a distraction (that's one of the reasons why I laid some of them six feet below).

However, I want to picture out the bigger picture here. We are now forgetting the importance of communicating personally. We laugh at those funny tweets and send virtual hugs for those who are in pain and sorrow, but do they see and feel our laughter and compassion?

Why not start something in the morning like instead of tweeting that you're having a hearty breakfast in Starbucks, ask one of your friends or colleagues to join you and share a cup of coffee?

IN MEMORIAM...

2011-06-04T00:02:00.001+08:00

to Edmilyn na natapos ang porn career dahil sa aking kaibigan na si Bansot.

hanapin nyo na lang kung alin ang naiiba sa google search ko na yan.

click mo to para makita.

QUICKIES

2011-06-02T16:43:00.002+08:00

"pieces tend to break apart when you try to hide the truth from the beginning..."

CHEF WANNABE

2011-05-18T00:55:00.001+08:00

pasensya na kuya chingoy if i used your title to be my post kaya alis muna dyan. LOL! anyway, since dad left to somewhere somewhere and mom is rendering overtime work daily at the office, ako na ang naging all-around boy. ampota, ang hirap pala ng maging houseband!

on the brighter side, dahil sabi nga nila na napabayaan ako sa kusina nung bata ako, pinanindigan ko na din lang ang pagluluto. kaya kaninang hapon, hinalungkat ko na ang laman ng ref at napagtanto kong meron na akong pang-pinakbet. sa totoo lang, sinubukan ko nang magluto ng pinakbet nun pero fail talaga. kung hindi hilaw eh sobrang alat.

kaya kanina ay pinagtiisan ko itong gawin. at ang resulta? simot ang niluto ko. whew! salamat sa bagnet. :)

HOMESICK

2011-05-02T00:31:00.000+08:00

Malapit na akong mag-isang dekada dito sa Manila. Ginugol ko lahat ito mula nung nagsimula akong pumasok ng college hanggang sa magkatrabaho.
Lahat naman siguro ng promdi na kagaya ko ay naranasan ang separation anxiety. Mahirap talaga kapag tinamaan ka ng ganitong sitwasyon. Yung mga taong pwede mo sanang takbuhan ay nasa malayo.

Hindi naging madali sa akin ang mag-adjust lalo na at perstaym kong masalta dito ng mag-isa. Putek, para akong baliw nun, meron akong notebook nun na maliit at nakalista kung ilang araw na lang ang natitira bago mag-sembreak. Minsan nga pag tinatawagan ako ng nanay ko sa telepono, umiiyak ako pero di ko pinapahalata sa kabilang linya. Nakakahiya! Haha!

Nakaraos din naman ako ng ilang buwan at nasanay na akong mag-isang mamuhay dito sa siyudad.

Subalit, datapwat, pero, ewan ko ba kung anong nakain ko kanina at bigla na lang ako naging emo. Bigla na lang akong nahomesick at gustung-gusto kong umuwi ng probinsya. Kung maaari lang sana kaso syempre kelangan ding isipin kung may budget at kung papayagan ba ako ng trabaho ko.

Sa totoo lang, sinisisi ko ang sarili kung bakit ako nagkaganito ngayon araw na to. Ikaw ba naman kasi ang humilata maghapon at walang gawin? Nagkaroon na ng rotation ang earth pero nasa kama pa din ako. Hindi ko man lang nasilayan ang tanawin sa labas. Ganun palagi ang dahilan kung bakit ako nahohomesick.

plane spotting at the rooftop. 1 departing and 1 on its final approach

Kaya ginawa ko, umakyat na lang ako sa rooftop, nag-plane spotting habang hawak ang isang bote ng beer at isang stick ng yosi. Ayos din kasi mahangin sa rooftop at tila pinawi ng hangin ang aking kalungkutan. Naks!

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EYOHW PHOWZ!

2011-04-30T00:42:00.001+08:00

Kumusta naman ang title, wala na talaga akong maisip na maisusulat pa sa blog. Pang-alis agiw lang at nagdedemand na din kasi si Rafter ng bagong post (demanding much?!). Masyado na kasing nawili sa kaka-twit at sa trabaho pero at least naman nakakabisita pa din ako sa mga bahay-bahay nyo. Hehehe.

Minsan lang ang sarap namnamin ang summer pero nitong mga nakaraang araw, halos isumpa ko na ang sobrang alinsangan ng panahon sa pinas. Nagbibihis pa lang kasi ako, pinagpapawisan na at basa na ang kili-kili. Lol!

Anyway, kumusta naman ang mga activities nyo ngayong summer? Naiinggit ako sa iba kasi nakapag-bakasyon na at nakapag-tampisaw na sa summer. Sa sobrang pagka-busy kasi sa office, hindi ko na alam kung paano ko isisingit ang isang ONE HOT SUMMER ~~FLING~~ FIX.

Buti pa ang bwakanang Bansot na Glen eh nagtatampisaw na sa Bora! Pota, magsasabing pupunta sya pero di man lang manlilibre. Hahahaha. Bitter much?

Basta susubukan kong makapag-summer escapade bago man lang dumating ang La Niña. San ba magandang pumunta?

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Location:Gen. A Luna St,Taguig City,Philippines

COMMERCIAL BREAK!

2011-04-05T03:00:00.005+08:00

Although I am already working in an IT company doing a technical job, believe it or not, I was a graduate of Corporate Communications. In layman's term, that's advertising and it was a major career change making both ends meet during those transition.

When I was in college, I foresee myself working in an advertising company like McCann, Leo Burnett, etc... I was exposed to TV then especially when our professors required us to watch the commercials instead of the regular television programs. These will be discussed on our next session talking about the creative idea and when it was aired and who owns that project, etc..

It was a great experience but very demanding. We have to scout to different tv networks to inquire for airing fee on various timeslots. And before we end the term, we need to come up with a great idea and squeezing our creative juices - a tri-media advertisement (TV, radio, and print) for a duct tape. It was hilarious but unfortunately, my professor didn't like it. haha!

Anyway, I was browsing on my facebook earlier and saw this very cute McDonald's commercial. Simple, catchy and funny. :)

QUICKIES

2011-04-03T05:27:00.000+08:00

The coffee has just started its effect on me after our caffeine fix with Gasul and Khacai. I can't sleep and i can already see the stray of the first morning light on the eastern horizon.

Even though we already started at around 1AM yet there were no reasons not to enjoy the company. It was an unplanned eyeball of four not-so-strangers and it was one of the best.

I hope to meet other bloggers again soon. :)

HOMEBOUND

2011-03-24T22:43:00.002+08:00

It was a busy day but I managed to have a small talk with my officemate spending her last day in the office. I learned she's going home in the province for good and plans to work there.

"It was a tough decision. I have to weigh-in everything and have to give up lots of opportunities. I gave up a job waiting for me abroad and a high-paying job here in Manila," she told me when I asked what made her decide. "I just want to live the simple life unlike the very fast pace of metro leaving, I want to teach in a university in Bacolod and reunite with my family," she added.

I admire her courageousness – she gave up the opportunities here and to find out what's in store for her in the province.

On the other hand, this made me ponder on my plans. I asked myself if I should stick to the plan of going home once I have enough savings. I guess so. I guess not.

I'm pretty much sure that I will ask again myself with the same questions anytime soon.

THE HEAT IS ON!

2011-03-17T19:18:00.003+08:00

therefore, i warmly welcome the summer season!

:-)

photo taken @ alona beach, panglao island, bohol.

DOMESTICATED

2011-03-13T22:21:00.000+08:00

Pakiramdam ko masyado na akong domesticated sa mga nakaraang araw. Dahil sa paglipat ko sa bagong bahay, mas nae-enjoy ko na ang mamalagi na lang dito kaysa sa paglalabas o paggimik.

Kung wala ako sa office o sa gym, malamang nasa bahay lang ako. Madalas eh nagluluto ng breakfast, lunch at dinner. Nakakatuwang isipin na madami akong natutunang lutuin, pilit ko na din kasing iwasan ang fast food.

Yung pagiging obsessive compulsive ko eh bumalik na din. Ayoko ng makalat at maalikabok na bahay kaya walis dito, punas dun, dapat din laging malinis ang pinakaimportanteng parte ng bahay – banyo. Hehehe.

Anyway, di pa ako nakakapag-house warming. Balak ko sana pag may oras na at kung may budget na din. Lol! At syempre, hindi makukumpleto yun pag wala kayong dadalhing gamit. Heto nilista ko lang naman ang mga kulang pa sa bahay ko:

Microwave oven

32" LCD TV

Coffee maker

Toaster

Corner lamp

Washing machine

Comforter set

Di ko naman sinabing isang tao lang ang magbibigay ng mga yan, pwede kayong hati-hati. Bwahihihi!

Kthnxbye!

BACK IN THE GROOVE

2011-03-04T01:55:00.003+08:00

This Q1 is more of a roller coaster ride. My work demanded more time than the usual but I am always happy for it.

There are also things that I have to be thankful for, things that I never imagined to achieve.

First, I already moved to a new condo near the office. I must say the place is nice and I felt at home from the time I stepped in here.

Next, the projects that lined up until Q3 are more exciting although I have a little chance of getting a business trip in here.

Third, I already received my first increase! Wooot!

And lastly, although it's not yet on my hand, a company somewhere in Eastwood is asking me to join them with of course twice (pero gusto ko thrice) of what I am receiving now plus more perks! At least I know now my market value. LOL! #yabangmuch. Sana nga kunin pa din nila ako.

Anyway, I hope you guys are enjoying the blessings you received these first few months of the year and sana tuloy-tuloy to hanggang matapos ang taon. J

in the next few days...

2011-02-21T21:58:00.001+08:00

... i will be moving to a new home.

image source: http://www.asian-central.com/stuffasianpeoplelike/2008/07/23/83-not-moving-out/

MY EX, MY CONFIDANT...

2011-02-06T19:25:00.002+08:00

Would it be so nice when your ex-girlfriend becomes your confidant?

We decided to separate ways 2 years ago when our future as a couple was blurring. Of course there were bitterness and lies and hurting and tears yet we didn't wallow much into that. We avoided running wallops into each other and embraced the reality of our new status.

We didn't have any communication after the breakup. I did not even have any news about her since I was not able to talk with her siblings.
Years came by. On one Saturday evening, I saw her in our favorite restaurant. We frequent that place since we both love their past. She's with another guy and I'm with my date.

We smiled and wave into each other, we even shared the table. Time heals all wounds as what they say.

Since then, we kept our communication open. I would text her and she would reply. She would call me and I answer. We also learned that we both went into turmoil of rebound relationships and left broken.
There's no malice on what we are doing now. In fact, we became good friends, confidant to be exact.

Sometimes she would ask me questions on why we get separated then we will both laugh on the reasons. One time she would call me crying because she and her hubby had a fight. She would text me in the morning to ask on how I will celebrate this and that.

I ask her out, too, if she would like to have lunch or dinner. I would also inform her that I had another "flavor of the month" and she dumped me.

We are much enjoying what we have now. We've been more open to things that we cannot discuss when we were together.

I guess that's what life is – people come over to our lives, some will go, then some will come again with a different purpose.

LOCATION: CUSP

2011-01-31T19:09:00.006+08:00

i always feel like i'm on a race aiming for the number 1 spot.

primera. segunda. quinta. faster than the speed of sound.

i shift gears in just a snap, i don't mind going in between.

i enjoyed the swift and feel like dancing in trance,

until i realized desolation kicked my ass.

i need to slow down.

i'll stay for now in the cusp.

LEZGOW!

2011-01-27T14:38:00.002+08:00

I love traveling and one of the things I do when I go to foreign lands is what they can offer eve when I go on budget trips. Local delicacy is a must and their EXTREME adventures should be tried.

In the last few years, I like the feeling of popping my adrenaline rush to the sky. Here are the 2 videos which I took before taking the ride.

HK Ocean Park's The Abyss

Singapore's GMAX Extreme Bungee

Pero dahil sa medyo parang pambata pa ang mga nasa taas, I am planning to do this probably in the next couple of years at kapag nakaipon na. Hehehe.

Macau Tower Bungee Jump

Kuala Lumpur Base Jump

Lezgow! :)

MEET MY BABY

2011-01-24T19:11:00.001+08:00

When I first saw her on the TV, I was one of worst critics. Sinabi ko pang mabilis lang sya malaos kasi puro sya ganda sa panlabas at wala sa panloob.

Pero tignan mo nga naman ang pagkakataon, I fell in love with her and loving her more and more everyday touching her. J

P.S.: High-maintenance GF pala sya, kelangang laging may damit para hindi sya magkapeklat at hongmohol ng accessories nya. Kaya ngayon, hubo't-hubad muna sya! Haha!

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Gimme A Break

2011-01-21T20:16:00.001+08:00

Simula ata nung pumasok ako nung January eh natatameme na lang ako sa tapat ng computer ko. Kung magkakaroon lang ng competition ng staring game sa monitor eh nanalo na ako. Hindi ko kasi alam kung bakit anong nangyari sa ginawa kong development sa project ko, bigla na lang nagkawalaan at nagka-luko-luko ang programming nya. Hayan tuloy, napagalitan tuloy ako ng business.

Anyway, dahil Friday naman, babawi na lang ako sa pagtulog this weekend at kung meron pang party party ay mas masaya. Gusto ko tuloy umeskapo dito sa office mag TUGSH TUGSH TUGSH na lang sa beat ng Yeah 3X ni Chris Brown.

Happy weekend sa inyong lahat!

MENDIOLA BOY

2011-01-13T22:48:00.000+08:00

Pauwi na ako galing sa bahay ng isang kaibigan para paunlakan ang kanyang paanyayang hapunan. Marahil sa madami na din akong iniisip at sa masamang pakiramdam ko, sumakay na lang ako ng jeep na byaheng Quiapo. Hindi ko na napansin kung saang ruta ito dadaan.

Nasa bandang LRT Pureza na kami nung nagtawag ng pasahero ang driver at sinisigaw ang Mendiola. Patay ako, mali ang nasakyan ko. Hindi ito dadaan sa Legarda kaya madodoble ang pamasahe ko o kung sipagin ako ay maglalakad ako ng malayo-layo.

Pero bigla na lang may maganda akong naisip. Marahil dahil sa hindi naman ako nagmamadaling umuwi ay pwede akong maglakad-lakad sa kalyeng pinamugaran ko din ng apat na taon para magsunog ng kilay.

Pagdating namin sa korner ng Mendiola at Aguila, bumaba na ako. Pinagmasdan ko ang mga pagbabago na dinulot ng panahon. Dumami na din ang mga mangangalakal sa bandang iyon. Resto, fast foods, banko at kung anu-ano pa.

Sa tinagal-tagal ko din sa lugar na iyon, naglipana ang mga memories nung ako ay isa pang Mendiola boy. Ito yung mga unang pagkakataong talagang tumatak sa aking isipan at humubog sa aking kamalayan.

Naranasan ko ng tumakbo na suot lang ang adult diaper para sa initiation rites. Isa itong seremonya para i-welcome kaming mga first year sa San Beda. Nakasulat pa sa likod ko nun ang aking cellphone number, baka sakaling may mag-text na taga-CEU o Holy Spirit o LaCo. Tsamba! Hehe.

Kung merong kantunan ang mga Intramuros-based universities, meron din kaming tinatawag na Hepa Lane sa may Mendiola Creek. Dito kami tumatambay pag bandang dapit-hapon para kumain ng kwek-kwek, beda burger, isaw at kung anu-anong tusok-tusok habang naamoy ang baho ng creek. Kebs na lang kahit naka-long sleeves and tie kami habang kumakain, pag paubos na ang baon, dun ang takbuhan naming madalas.

Meron ding sikat na kainan na tinatawag naming Haunted House. Sa halagang P15 eh solve na ang gutom – sabaw, kanin at tatlong pirasong pork adobo. Box office hit din dito ang kanilang calamares, mura kasi sya pero punong puno ng harina. Ginagawa na lang naming ay ulamin ang harina.

Sa Mendiola ko din unang nakakipag-lips to lips kay yosi. Nangyari ito pagkatapos ng exam ko sa law. Dahil sa sobrang stressful ang exam, pinasubok sa akin ng classmate ko para daw marelax ako. Ngayon, napapayosi na lang ako occasionally, ayoko naman kasing maging chain smoker ako.

Sa isang madilim na sulok ko din unang natikman ang sex.

Madami pa sana akong ikukwento kaso napahaba na ng husto. Alam ko naman kasing mag-i-skip read nanaman si Glentot at si Ahmer at si Jepoy. Ampf!

BACK TO WORK

2011-01-07T01:21:00.002+08:00

Sabi ko sa previous post ko kung gaano ko ni-enjoy ang tatlong linggong bakasyon ko. Today, it's payback time, it's my first workday for this year and I already anticipated na magiging super busy ako.

I switched on my laptop, opened the outlook and all my other accounts except the social networking sites. I went to the pantry to get my daily dose of vitamin c – COFFEE!

And bang! Pagbalik ko sa desk ko after five minutes, I saw my unread emails na umabot ng 400+ at napuno na din ang mailbox so I expected na meron pang mga darating which was correct. Damn damn damn!

Kaya today, intolerable na ang stress level. Isama pa ang mga escalations at project issues… L

Sigh! Never will I do again extending my holiday break.

Kthnksbye!

EXTENDED VACATION

2011-01-04T11:47:00.004+08:00

dahil ni-extend ko ang holiday break ko ng tatlong araw (nabitin kasi ako halos tatlong linggo naming company shutdown) ay sinuper sulit ko na! kahapon, kasama ko ang aking mga fwends ay kinaladkad nila ako sa kanilang tour. heto ang ilan sa mga kuha ko. :)

breakfast @ rosewell

pristine view of the pagudpud shoreline

into the blue

the long and winding patapat viaduct

paraiso ni anton

the windmill farm replica

the cape bojeador

staircase to heaven

pagtanaw sa dapithapon (emo shot)

the pornstar (kayo na ang payat!)

There is one picture here taken from a camera phone. Kung sino ang unang makakahula, bibigyan ko ng windmill keychain at kung suswertehin ay yung mas malaking replica na nasa taas at kiss from the pornstar (ehem!).

"mini me" keychain

Kthanksbye!

4 YEARS AGO…

2011-01-02T12:27:00.010+08:00

Disclaimer: 'Yung mga magagaling manlait, magbagong buhay na kayo!
*Haters-shield ON!*

…mukha pala akong adik.

Pinauwi kasi ng nanay ko yung pagkamahal-mahal naming yearbook. Oo, limang-libo ang pinaguusapan natin sa hardbound sh*t na papel de lihang ito. Kaya kaninang umaga, napagkatuwaan kong basahin ulit ang pagka-gondo-gondong write up sa akin:

"He is a good son and a friend whom we can always count on. Our first impression was that he was a very serious person, holding a pile of books all the time. But we soon found out that he's a full of life and compassion, and fun to be with. Gwapo pa!"

Kakaaliw lang! haha! Buhat banko much? #akonatalaga!

At siyempre, ikaw ba naman kasi ang mukhang anghel:

creative shot para yearbook namin! honggwopo talaga uy!

Pero dahil hirap na akong i-juggle (parang bote lang) ang acads at extra curriculars nung fourth year ay bumaba ang aking pogi points. Tigyawat, eyebags, payatot, bad hair days bwakanang sh*t. Basta mukha talagang grumpy ampfota.

ito ang school org namin nun. mukha talaga akong adik ampf!

Ikaw ba naman kasi ang maghabol ng 1.75 na GPA? JOOOOKKKKEEEE! Bwahahahaha!

Kthanxbye!

a time to give back (a year-end post)

2011-01-01T03:40:00.012+08:00

I was midway finishing my year-end post when I scrapped the whole idea. I realized that I don't have to list down all the reasons why I should be grateful this year. Instead, I want to thank my friends which I owe a lot for sharing their blessings to the kids. For giving as well of so much effort to make the "a time to give back project" a success sans the 4 hours of bumpy travel to reach the community and the chilly weather. Saludo ako sa inyo!

In 2010, life has been tough to some. Nevertheless, they didn't forget to give back which I really appreciate a lot. I really don't know how to pay you back but I hope that as you see the smiles painted on the faces of these kids is enough to melt our hearts.

I made a simple slideshow of the pictures taken during the event.

A Time to Give Back Project from Andy Dugay on Vimeo.

Happy New Year! May God bless you!

Pahabol na pasasalamat para kina Serdna Tunac, Grace Torqueza, Paul Acupan, Clifford Dumlao, Ella Castro at sa mga DSWD Day Care Center teachers ng Adams, Ilocos Norte.

NANG AKO AY MAINGGIT...

2010-12-30T19:57:00.001+08:00

...kila Jepoy at Gasul, ako ay nag-video blog. Hehehe :)

Video Blog from Andy Dugay on Vimeo.

THE REUNION

2010-12-26T11:16:00.001+08:00

i have this dilemma last night on the 6 dinner invites i got. isa sa bahay ng high school friend ko, 3 from the relatives, 1 from the neighborhood at isa sa mga childhood friends ko.

so i weighed the pros and cons - kung saan mas masaya at may inuman. LOL! siyempre, pinili ko ay yung sa mga childhood friends ko kasi may videoke and nomnomnom. tagal na kayang hindi nadadaluyan ng alcohol ang lalamunan ko. #AkoNaAngLasinggero.

isang backflip at cartwheel lang naman ang layo nila sa mansion namin kaya hindi problema ang pag-uwi ng late. pagdating ko sa bahay nila, gawd hindi ko na sila mamukhaan! sa limang taon naming di pagkikita-kita, ang mga dating uhuging bata ay ampucha may mga anak na!

ang mga kalaro ko ng buhangin lang nun ay kaharap ko na sa inuman. ;-)

lemon drop shots!

as usual, nagtanong nanaman sila kung kelan ang ako mag-a-asawa. i just replied, "i can feel the ~~pleasure~~ pressure right now!"

anyway, i really enjoyed the bijoke last night. i scored two 100 points on "Closer You and I" and "Bongga ka Day (so 70's)". i think i can really start my singing career now. as in now na! :)

merry christmas sa inyong lahat! hindi naman ako late sa pagbati dahil araw-araw ay pasko. naks!

KWENTO NG ISANG KID AT HEART SA ARAW NG PASKO

2010-12-25T01:26:00.007+08:00

AKO NA ANG MAY MAHABANG TITLE SA POST! LOL!

Kahit medyo hindi naging maganda ang araw na ito, I still welcomed and celebrated the Christmas Day with a smile on my face. Thanks to my friends who kept me company through texts and instant messaging.

Nagkaroon lang ng kaunting problema sa bahay which made me wept a bit nung nasa dinner table ako at magisang kumain. Buti na lang at ako lang mag-isa dun, I just hate dramas. Anyway, I need to look on the brighter side instead, it's Christmas after all!

Kagabi ay nagsimula ko nang i-wrap yung mga Christmas presents ko sa mga bata kong pamangkin at pinsan. Nakakagaan lang ng pakiramdam kasi alam mong matutuwa sila sa mga toys na binabalot ko sa kanila. Pero sabi nga sa akin ni mommy na huwag ko na lang daw ibalot, pero syempre mas gusto ko yung may element of surprise.

Sa sobrang katuwaan ko eh pinagtuunan ko ng oras ang bawat regalo, ayokong kasing parang mediocre lang ang pagkakabalot. Hayan tuloy, inabot ako hanggang madling araw sa pagbabalot at nakatulog na din ako sa mesa habang tumutulo ang laway.

At kaninang hapon ay umalis na ako ng bahay para ihatid na ang mga regalo. Medyo malayo lang dahil sa kabilang bayan pa sila nakatira at nakakastress ang pag-drive kasi traffic. Madami pa rin kasing humahabol sa Christmas rush. Subalit, hindi ko na lang pinansin dahil sa excitement ko na ding makita ulit ang mga bata.

Pagdating naming sa bahay ng lola ko ay sakto lang, andun silang lahat. Siyam silang mga bulilit na makukulit at di ko na rin makabi-kabisado ang mga pangalan nila kaya yung iba eh walang name tags. Kawawang bata. LOL!

Sa nakita kong ngiti sa kanilang mukha ay hindi ko na talaga naisip ang mga problemang naiwan sa bahay. Masaya na akong makita ang mga batang ito na natutuwa sa mga natanggap na regalo.

Napaisip tuloy ako, buti pa ang mga bata, sa simpleng mga regalo ay masaya na sila. Mga simpleng bagay ay ok na sa kanila. Simple lang din ang mga problema gaya ng paano lumilipad yung ibon, bakit kulay blue ang langit, bakit masarap ang chocolates, etc.

Namiss ko na tuloy ang mga Pasko nung bata pa ako na kung saan tuwang-tuwa na ako sa isang balot ng Moby at Tosquitos na bigay ng nakabunot sa akin. Pero sabagay, kid at heart pa din naman ako. J

PS: tawa ako ng tawa sa video na to, salamat kay Victor. :D

Personalize funny videos and birthday eCards at JibJab!

PAGKAKATAON

2010-12-22T10:23:00.003+08:00

	Five for Fighting - Chances .mp3

	Found at bee mp3 search engine

Kung nakilala ka ba nya ng mas maaga, kayo pa rin ba kaya?

Naipaglaban ka pa din nya kaya kung ikaw ang mas nauna kang naging kanya?

Paano kung lumabas ka ng tinuluyan mong hotel at nagkataong palabas din sya ng pinto para pumasok sa opisina? Magkatapat lang kasi mga pinto ninyo?

Ano kaya mararamdaman mo kung ikaw ang pinili nya? Matutupad pa kaya mga pangarap mo?

*****

Kay tagal mong inantay ang pagkakataon na 'to.

Kung pinalagpas mo, magiging masaya ka pa kaya sa mga sandaling ito?

Paano kaya kung hindi ka nagkamali sa nauna, makikilala mo pa kaya sya?

Kakaiba ding maglaro ang tadhana di ba?

*****

Takot ka bang sabihin sa kanya ang iyong nararamdaman?

Paano kapag ito na lang ang pagkakataon mong magsabi sa kanya?

Papalampasin mo pa ba o hayaan mo na lang na maiwan?

Hindi kaya baka mas lalo kang magsisi kung hindi mo nasabi sa kanya?

Madaming mukha ang pagkakataon. Ikaw, kung darating yun papalampasin mo pa ba? Malamang sasabihin mong oo subalit minsan mapaglaro ang tadhana...

THANK YOU!

2010-12-20T22:06:00.004+08:00

130 kids and kids at heart

130 jollibee chickenjoy and spaghetti meals

more than a hundred toys shared

boxes of crayons to color their world

packs of candies and chocolates given

a stand fan and a wall clock for the day care center

a big smile painted on everyone's face

xièxie!

terima kasih!

salamat!

agyaman kami amin!

thank you!

a Time to Give Back project was a success. i want to thank all of you who supported this project and may you have more blessings to come.

let's plan for another round next year! :)

RUSH HOUR

2010-12-15T19:23:00.000+08:00

Rush hour ba kamo at ayaw mong sumakay ng MRT kasi maarte much ka at dahil siksikan? Eh pano pa sila:

TO MY MS. UNIVERSE

2010-12-09T01:30:00.003+08:00

to the one who cooks pinakbet everytime i go home...
to the one who checks me from time to time if i'm at work already...

to the one who asks for Coach bag on her birthday (sorry, di ko afford! lol)...

to the one who asks for a birthday cake from his most handsome prince...

to my Ms, Universe ng puso ko...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, MOMMY! :)

juma-jump shot! go!

BALIK PAGKABATA

2010-12-05T23:25:00.027+08:00

"May magic 8-ball ditto sa toys r us!", text sa akin ni blogger na ayaw magpakilala kaya tatawagin na lang natin syang ninong doraemon. Lol!

Matagal na din kasi kaming naghahanap ng toy na yun kaya na-excite naman ako pero on the other side eh malungkot kasi wala sya sa budget ko. Tig-500 din kaya yun.

si ninong doraemon na binilhan ako ng magic-8 ball. bwahahaha!

Inabutan ko si ninong doraemon sa Toys R Us na namimili na. Nagre-retail therapy nga sya ng mga toys! Hehehe. Nung nakita ko syang may bitbit nang Magic-8 ball eh nainggit ako ng slight.

toys r us galleria

"Ninong Doraemon, pabili naman nyan!", sabi ko sa kanya.

"Sige kuha ka na kahit ilan pa!", syempre tuwang-tuwa ako sa sagot nya! Wheeee meron na akong magic-8 ball! Hahaha!

Pakiramdam ko bumalik ako sa pagkabata. Dami kong gustong bilhin na toys kasi wala ako ng mga ganito nung bata ako. Isa lang kasi akong batang pinalaki sa payak na pamumuhay di gaya ni Glentot, Jepoy, Gasulito, Ahmer, Roanne at maraming pang iba. Haha!

si tatay masayang nakikipaglaro sa anak sa loob ng store.

floating globe, I want it so bad!

Hongondo talaga ng toy store at babalik ako dito sa makalawa para makabili ng gifts para sa mga pamangkin ko. Santa mode ulet ako pag ganitong Holidays.

Syempre, habang papauwi ako eh di na ako nakatiis na magtanong sa bola:

Q1: Makakapunta na din ba ako ng Singapore next year? à My sources say NO.

Q2: Pero makakapag-abroad na ba ako? à YES definitely. à so ibig sabihin, hindi ko matatagpuan sa Singapore ang future job ko. Baka Europe na ito! Woot!

Natuwa namana ko ng slight kaya pinagpatuloy ko ang pagtatanong. In Fairview naman kasi consistent ang mga sagot nya. Hahaha! Pero syempre, nasa akin pa din ang bola para pagdesisyunan ko ang future ko.

Q3: Mananalo na ba ako ng lotto? à YES à aba aba aba! Makataya nga bukas. Hahaha!

Q4: Mapo-promote ba ako ulet next year? à My answer is NO. à ouch naman.

Q5: Magiging kami ba ni *insert name here*?

à Reply hazy, try again. à so inulit ko.

à Concentrate and ask again. à inulit ko ulit!

à At sa pangatlong pagkakataon, ang sagot nya à DON'T COUNT ON IT.

Hayun, binato ko na lang sya sa pader. Hahahahahaha!

HAVE YOU SEEN MY GLASSES?

2010-12-04T01:58:00.002+08:00

I'm getting forgetful already especially with my eyeglasses. I am not so sure why I always remember where I put my keys but not with my glasses.

Every time I go out of the bathroom, expect me looking for my spectacles. Minsan nakakalimutan ko na nasa loob pala ng banyo, or placed it in front of the tv, or on left it on my bed.

Earlier, when I'm finished freshening up before hitting the bed, I was looking again for my eyeglasses. It's nowhere to be found to the locations where I usually put it.

I gave up, probably it's just there sitting around and I'll just look for it tomorrow.

Then I opened the fridge and my spectacles were there sitting on the eggs. Damn, sign of aging!

Amiss

2010-11-29T12:46:00.001+08:00

Weekend came in just a snap. I went to see movie and had coffee with friends. Just the usual routine of my weekends.

But this is different. Something is amiss. Something is void and should fill a presence.

Probably, I just need a company of someone special to give me solacement and pull me out from this insanity before i get bare.

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a time to give back (UPDATE!)

2010-11-24T21:51:00.004+08:00

Related post: A Time to Give Back Project

Hey guys!

Thanks for your support! I already received some pledges for the realization of this project though we still need to raise more funds – that's around P11000 to feed the 124 kids.

Just to give you an update as well, we were able to contact the mayor of Adams and he will be providing us the transportation from Laoag to their town and also to Pagudpud! I was able to talk as well with the coordinator from Jollibee Laoag and they will give us discounts for the feeding program. J

Anyway, we are still open to those who want to share their blessings this coming season. Deadline will be on December 15, 2010. This will be fun, guys. J

Donations in kind are also welcome. Please just email me at rafaeldugay@yahoo.com for more info.

To those who want to stay anonymous, you can deposit on my bank account which is dedicated for this project:

Bank of the Philippine Islands

Victor Rafael Dugay

SA# 1029-0336-72

MY BUDDY

2010-11-17T23:14:00.019+08:00

It was already around 8ish when I arrived home. My usual buddies welcomed me, jumping and messing up the clothes I'm wearing. I'm wondering why they are only 3 - Tiger, Cocoy, and Ratzky. Tosky is missing.

"Nasan si Tosky?", I asked my mom.

"He's been missing for a 2 weeks already. We tried to find him but he's nowhere to be found.", she sighed.

I can still remember when I went home for the semestral break. I was still college freshman then. Although it's our first time to meet, he's been jumping on my luggage with his soiled feet. I was also frustrated for playing with my slippers, leaving it torn.

He's been with us for around 8 years. For those long years, he usually lie down beside me so I can scratch his belly when I'm home. He used to wake me up every morning – he goes to my room and licks my toes.

Earlier today, I was scanning the pictures on my old computer. I chanced upon his picture I took 5 years ago.

tosky when he was 3

We are not sure if he's still alive or not. But I am hoping wherever he is, May God be with him.

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STRANGE FEELING

2010-11-15T01:29:00.001+08:00

I can't sleep.

I keep on tossing myself on the bed for hours already.

Something is unfamiliar since I came here, something is amiss.

I feel like I am a stranger in my own room.

Our house is very silent.

Probably because it is almost empty. Only mom is here. Dad is assigned in Baguio.

I just can't help but feel this depression tonight.

Maybe I just miss the city. I miss the crowd.

Or I'm just missing somebody.

a time to give back project

2010-11-10T02:32:00.014+08:00

Hi guys! Christmas is yet again coming so fast and probably some of you are already saving for your Noche Buena.

But hey, I am thinking of this nice…err… great idea which was suggested by my tito when I went home a couple of months ago! He wanted to celebrate his birthday by giving some Jollibee kids meal to some indigents of this small and neglected town of Adams in Ilocos Norte (I know some of you already know that I'm an Ilocano). However, due to time and budget constraints, his plan wasn't pushed through.

Just to give you a background, I visited once this town wherein I saw how simple yet hard their life is. Most of them farm to earn for a living. I am not surprised to learn that these kids only know Jollibee from the television but never even tasted a single piece of chickenjoy.

This year, I want to start something not only for myself but also for these kids who are somewhat deprived. I was thinking of instead spending my earnings with partying or for leisure, I will just put them into this project. Thus, I plan to have something like feeding program, something like "A Time to Give Back" project. I am only thinking now of a big budget for this event. I want this plan to materialize and I want to let kids show that they are not deprived. I can already imagine the smiles of these kids on that date of the event.
With this, I am thinking if I could pull some help from you guys for this project. I know some of you are striving hard to earn but a small amount will give these kids a memorable day they won't probably forget. I would be gladly and very thankful for any donations or monetary amount to be pledged.

For more information or for pledges, please contact us at via email at rafaeldugay@yahoo.com or ladymisthe@yahoo.com (Amae, my co-organizer).

We will be accepting pledges until the 18th of December. To those who want to stay anonymous, you can deposit on my bank account which is dedicated for this project:

Bank of the Philippine Islands

Victor Rafael Dugay

SA# 1029-0336-72

Thanks guys in advance. J

PS: I am inviting you as well if you want to join us on that date. You can stay in our house basta sa inyo ang pamasahe. Hehehe. Peace! J

“Three keys to more abundant living: caring about others, daring for others, sharing with others.” -William Arthur Ward

QQ# 02 - MOVING ON

2010-11-02T03:57:00.001+08:00

on which heartbreak is harder to move on?

a relationship that only lasted for a while?

or a relationship that took more than a year?

i heard lots of stories already and even from my past experience that relationships who lasted only a few weeks or months are harder to move on. is this because we have more why's and what if's?

how about you? how long did it take for you to heal?

to a new friend who is still in the process of healing after a failed relationship a couple of years ago, i hope that you will be healed soon. :)

NOTE TO SELF

2010-10-26T23:33:00.000+08:00

"There's no harm in asking.

You're not dumb, you're resourceful instead."

i'm about to quit on one of my projects. hayup lang kasi stressful much sya. gustong-gusto ko na syang i-close pero pag nagbibigay ako ng reports sa client, padagdag naman ng padagdag ang kanilang requirements! argh!

buti na lang meron akong napagtatanungan at nahihingan ng tulog.

hayan, ok na ko. nailabas ko ang kinikimkim kong stress.

LOOK, DAD, I MADE IT!

2010-10-24T02:20:00.010+08:00

"You're going to send him to college in Manila? Baka magbubulakbol lang yan! Magsasayang lang tayo ng pera sa kanya."

I was hurt. It's more painful to hear that statement coming from my dad. He didn't believe in my capacity, he compared me to my younger brother who is the intelligent one. My mom just told me to ignore him and just to keep my moral on high grounds.

I was an underdog when I was in grade school and as well in my high school years, the mediocre perhaps. In the ranking, I was always on the bottom of the list. On the other hand, my brother was always on the honor roll during those days. He graduated with flying colors both in grade school and high school. I know I already did a great effort to belong on the top section and contented with that while watching my brother marching into the stage receiving a handful of medals. Envy, it's what I felt.

The day I left to the city, I was wearing a heavy heart. I was at the brink of crying.

First year came along, a little bit hard fighting the homesickness. Second year, still managing to juggle all my school requirements. Third year and fourth year came along as heavy as what I expected.

But in those 4 years of being far away from them, I made it to the point that my dad will be proud of me as will march with pride and honor on that baccalaureate event. I will try to change my image as a dumb ass, lame and laid back student from his eyes.

That day came. I was wearing that glorious red toga with satisfaction. At last, they can now breathe that I was able to finish my college on time.

But that was not only my surprise for them. Yes, it was only that day that they have known of my "surprise."

And my dad hugged me so tight for the first time, teary eyed. It's not that I proved him wrong, I proved that I made it.

Tablet War

2010-10-22T21:05:00.013+08:00

Gone are the days when the first thing that comes to our mind when we hear the word tablet is either the med or the tablet was used in The Ten Commandments.

This generation, the imagination of geniuses err... clever peeps... is unending. Thus, we have these new so-called tablets.

First, there was Apple iPad. Sleek. Accelerometer and touch screen features are par excellence.

Other computer companies envied the new tech baby, thus they came out with their own iPad-killers:

The controversial Blackberry Playbook. This new baby of Research in Motion believed that this gadget won't be as successful as the iPad.

Then there's the Galaxy Tab, Samsung's bigger version of their Galaxy mobile - same as the iPhone and the iPad tandem, but unlike Apple's sexy babies, Galaxy have both phone functionality (not that skype, yahoo calls).

And here's the latest and I am really drooling for it. No, I'm not bias just because I am working with Hewlett-Packard. This new hottie is really an eye-candy. Ok fine, I'm getting bias already. But what the heck, this tablet is superb! Multi-tasking, fully powered by Windows 7 (good thing that they didn't embed or made the Palm OS as the operating system - HP acquired Palm this year), camera, it's a laptop that you can hold and operate with just one hand. Powerful eh?

Now, I am sacking my Mac dream which I stated on my previous post. I am looking forward to buy this one in the future. Good thing, we have a good discount in purchasing HP products. :)

QQ #02

2010-10-21T23:46:00.006+08:00

Would you agree to add another 8 working hours on top of the normal 8 hours per day?
Would you agree to add additional workday/s on top of the normal 5 days a week?

What if I said "YES!", will you kill me?

I just wish that there will be 48 hours in a day so I can extend more time to finish my work. 24 hours is not enough and so with the 5 workdays.

Damn! I should love my job.

Nope, I am not ranting on my work. In fact, I'm enjoying how stressful it is, I am challenged. :)

________________________________________

As a reward, I need to get one of these for myself within 10 years. lol! *drools*

BEDSIDE CHRONICLES

2010-10-19T00:04:00.008+08:00

Dahil na din sa di pa ako dinadalaw ng antok pagkagaling sa werk eh napagkatuwaan ko ng sunugin ang mga libro ko. Joke! Opkors not! Isa-isa ko na silang binabasa at impeyrness eh naaaliw ako sa mga to.

Currently, nasa bedside table ko ang Anansi Boys ni Neil Gaiman (idol na idol ko sya), prequel ito nung American Gods na gustong-gusto ko din. I really got hooked on this book kasi tumatawa ako pag binabasa ko sya. The humor is the same like watching a comedy.

Sana matapos ko na to sa medaling panahon kasi madami pa akong pending na books at hihiramin ko pa yung Neverwhere na napanalunan ni Glentot. Hihihi!

Pag di ko naman trip ang magbasa eh nandyan naman ang podcast at pinapakinggan ko hanggang makatulugan ko. I usually listen to Chico and Del's Morning Rush. Dahil nga sa sarap na sarap pa ako sa paghilik sabay pagkamot ng tyan eh di ko na sila napapakinggan halos isang taon na. Salamat na lang sa podcast na downloadable. You can also download them here c/o Blue Ritz (salamat!) at be ready na lang na tumawa mag-isa sa loob ng FX o MRT habang nakikinig.

HIGH SCHOOL DAYS

2010-10-14T22:01:00.010+08:00

I was busy browsing my Facebook account when one of my classmates buzzed me. We asked each other how we are and where we have been.

I learned that he's been part of the academe since we graduated college. See? It's only now that I knew of his job, poor boy Andy. He's been teaching in our high school alma mater for a couple of years already.

We exchanged stories on our own stuff and talked about our classmates. He told me also that a quite number of our class already left to search for greener pastures abroad. Some went to the Middle East to pursue their engineering profession, to the Europe and to the Americas as nurses, but most of us stayed here in the country. Some already got married, some are not but already have children. Some are still unemployed and just accept remittances from their parents working overseas.

Well, we are already far from what we were before but I can still remember the vivid memories of these great years. We cut classes because we don't want to attend our chemistry or English class and would rather take a dip on the river behind our school. A day after, all of us were summoned to the guidance counselor's office. We ate isaw on the peddler who stand just outside the school gate without worrying of any disease we might catch. Those were the great and carefree days.

an evidence of our "cutting classes" days

I'm wondering now if my classmates already achieved their dreams same as what was written in the epilogue of our yearbook. Most of us wanted to go abroad and work and I know that some of them did.

A month from this date, we will be having this alumni homecoming and my classmate is asking me to come. I'm not sure I'll be joining but I guess, this will be so much fun to reconnect with the folks that once became a part of my life.

MY GROWN-UP WISH LIST

2010-10-04T02:54:00.002+08:00

Malapit na naman ang Pasko. Malamig at mabango na ang simoy ng hangin basta wag lang umutot yung katabi mo sa bus. Hehe.

Heniway, wala namang kuneksyon ang post ko sa Christmas. Tungkol kasi ito sa tuff 10 wishes ko. Tutal nangangarap eh lubus-lubusin ko na din. Pagbibigyan nyo na ako hehe:

1. Gusto kong magkaroon ng sariling mcdo sa loon ng aking bahay na parang si Richie Rich. Kapag nagutom ako eh punta lang ako sa counter at sabihin ko lang ang gusto ko. At dahil sa akin yung mcdo na yun eh lahat libre! Gudlak na lang sa fats! Haha!

2. Nung bata ako eh wish kong makasakay ng heyrpleyn. At dahil medyo nagsawa na ako sa pagsakay (hangyabang lang! Haha) eh gusto ko namang ako ang maging piloto! Kaya pinag-iipunan ko na yung angeles flying iskul, kasama dito Sinai roanne at ahmer. Di na nga ako kumakain para lang may pambayad. Lol!

3. Heto medyo seryoso. Gusto kong magkaroon ng gasoline business. Parang anlaki kasi ng kita at tipong di ka malulugi given na maganda ang location. Lahat naman kasi ng sasakyan eh pinapatakbo mg gasolina kaya kelangan ka nila. Ikalawa dyan eh isang resto business. Alam nyo naman na pinalaki ako sa kusina kaya malapit ako sa pagkain. Hehe

3. Wish kong maka-apak sa New York pero as a tourist lang. Gusto kong akyatin ang empire state at kumanta ng "New York! Kangkong kangkong garlic tomato!" haha. Gusto ko ding mag-piktyur sa may isteychu op liberty.

4. Gusto ko ding pumunta ng Japan pag spring na. Parang hangganda kasi pag namulaklak na ang mga cherry blossoms with matching nagbibiskleta ako dun sa park. Emo epek lang Haha!

5. Wish kong i-spoil ang mga bulilit kong mga pamangkjn sa mga bagay na di ko naranasan nung ako eh bata pa. Lumaki kasi ako sa hirap at ngayong medyo nakaluwag-luwag ng konti eh gusto ko silang tulungan. Ayokong hindi nila ma-enjoy ang kabataan nila at makapag-aral da magandang iskul at hindi dun sa isang public school kung saan alo nag-aral at kapos gamit gaya libro.

6. Wish ko eh mai-tour ko peyrents ko kahit dito man lang sa Asia. Kaya sa mga mabubuting tao dyan na pwede kaming patirahin eh maawa kayo para naman libre na ang accomodation. Lol! Pwede na siguro sa Ho Chi Minh, Singapore o Macau. Itext nyo lang ako sa 0917-andypog kung ok lang. Grabe nagkalat pala kayo at pwedeng-pwede ko kayong bisitahin anytime, basta aampunin nyo ako. haha!

7. Gusto kong makapag-work na sa ibang bansa at mag-join sa OFW club. Hehehe.

8. Macbook pro. Enough said. :-)

9. Masaya na ako kung magkakaroon ako ng entertainment showcase. Isang 42" LED (ayoko na ng LCD) TV, Bose 6.1 surround sound system at 5 lazy boy chairs. Haha!

10. At higit sa lahat, nakahanda na ang singsing, wala nga lang mapangasawa. Lol!

O diba, simpleng-simple lang ang mga wish ko s buhay at sana isa man lang dyan eh matupad ko na kahit di man ngayon eh next year. :-)

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DOUBT ON RELIGION

2010-10-01T01:17:00.007+08:00

This is an answer to Ahmer's post Imagine- asking if man would be better without religion.

I would disagree that mankind would be better if we don't have any religion. We all know that there are lots of controversies that the Church is facing, I believe that we still have faith intact.

Think of the positive side and not the negative, I know you're an eternal optimist. Our religion honed our faith and taught us to praise Him in whatever we do. Our religion taught us to pray if we need or to thank Him . Our religion taught us the wisdom to what is right from what is wrong. Our religion gave us the avenue to communicate with Him.

Now, come to consequences if we don't have the religion which is the most foundation of our morality. Would you think that burglary, rape, lust, cheating, and others are sins? Would you still be alive if killing is not against on the will of God? Whom would you call if we are seeking intervention on the impossible?

Imagine no possessions
I wonder if you can
No need for greed or hunger
A brotherhood of man
Imagine all the people
Sharing all the world

Don't blame our Church nor our religion. God gave us life and freedom but we exploited it.

CHOPSTICKS CHRONICLES

2010-09-29T17:08:00.000+08:00

Mahilig ako sa mga Asian foods gaya sushi, sashimi, ramen, champong at kung anu-ano pang noodles. Pero isang bagay ang kanilang common denominator - ang chopsticks. Bata ako eh natutunan ko na kung paano gumamit ng chopsticks. Mahilig kasi ako sa lucky me pancit canton. Masarap kasi ang mag-canton lalo na pag malamig lalo na sa likod ng Mapua, yung cantonan dun. Hehe.

Lately, napahilig ako sa pagkain ng Korean noodles na nabibili sa isang Korean convenience store sa may Ortigas. 'Yung chopsticks nila ay yung ordinary na kahoy.

Maniwala man kayo o hindi, laging di pantay ang pagkaka-hiwalay ko sa kanila. Laging tabingi na halos minsan ay hirap na akong gamitin.

Napagnilay-nilayan ko (honglolim!) na ang chopsticks ay pwedeng ikumpara natin sa buhay.

Simulan natin dun sa paghahati nito sa gitna. Una, kapag minadali mo ito ay minsan natatabingi o hindi pantay. Mahirap kumain pag tabingi. Parang mga decisions natin sa buhay, kapag sige lang ng sige sa pag-decide at tila di ka nag-iisip, ikaw din ang mahihirapan sa bandang huli. Kaya para mas maganda ang outcome eh hinay-hinay sa pagdecide at gawin ito ng maayos para pantay at hindi tabingi. Slowly but surely.

Ikalawa, may ugali tayo ni tinatasa muna ang chopsticks bago kumain para tanggalin ang mga pwedeng makasamid sa lalamunan. Hindi naman kasi masarap kung nakalulon ka ng kawayan di ba? Ganyan din ang buhay, minsan kelangan tayong dumaan sa pag-tasa sa sarili natin para matuto at maituwid ang pagkakamali. Masakit nga minsan ang karanasan pero madalas dun naman tayo matututo. We learn mostly on those things the hurt and disappoint us.

Ikatlo, napansin ko ang mga Singaporeans eh hindi Lang chopsticks ang ginagamit kundi may spoon sila na pang-congee o soup. Ginagamit ito para makuha ang sabaw sa kinakain. Ang kahulugan lang yan eh mas ok kung may karamay ka, meron kang kasama kasi mas madami kang nagagawa at napapadali ang buhay at higit sa lahat eh mas masaya. Tignan din natin sa chopsticks, walang kwenta kung nag-iisa lang sya kaya dapat laging may kapares.

Ikaw, para ka din bang chopsticks?

MAY JUSTICE PREVAIL

2010-09-28T22:30:00.010+08:00

A number of my fellow Bedans got hurt on the blast last weekend during the Salubong 2010 along Taft Avenue.

Two of them ended with amputated leg leaving her dreams shattered. But I know she's strong enough to surpass this storm in her life because Bedans are strong, we will survive yet we don't know how to kill. We are the lions in the jungle, the prowess will reign.

We condemn those who were behind the blast and may the victims will achieve justice.

"Bedans will answer the clarion call

For San Beda, our country, and God."

Going Vegetarian!

2010-09-18T03:04:00.006+08:00

Lesser or none at all, I promised to avoid carbs. I made it on the first run. I tried and was fulfilled, thus I'll do it again. I know I'll be used to until I reach full adaption.

I'm getting successful with this, I need to.

Feeling lighter and more alert, that's the first symptoms. I'm getting excited with the results.

Wait 'til I get the effect of this insanity.

CHILL MUNA!

2010-09-15T22:13:00.007+08:00

Pressure and stress lead me to the state of anxiety.

Naramdaman ata ito ng boss ko kaya sabi nya, “Werden chill, Andy!”

Chill lang daw, slow down at the cusp at baka madisgrasya pa ako ng tuluyan. Mental ang kababagsakan.

Bilang pakunswelo, inextend ang aking deadline!

Kaya naman I sported my earphone and swayed to the tune.

Feet thomping. Head bobbing. The beat meets the body and I feel good.

ADOBO 101

2010-09-06T10:53:00.003+08:00

Nawiwili ako sa pagluluto ng baon ko sa opisina araw-araw. Kung anu-anong klaseng experiment ang ginagawa ko sa kusina para lang mapasarap ang luto. Mahilig ako sa food pero di halata dahil sa tikas at gandang lalake ko talaga, di gaya ng iba dyan! Bwahihi!

Isa akong GI –Genuine Ilocano kaya lumaki ako sa province na mahilig talaga sa mga home-cooked meals. Hindi naman ako pihikan sa food pero alam ko kung paano sabihin kung sumptuous ang ulam o kaya pang-carinderia ni Aling Cora sa may kanto dito sa Sampaloc.

Likas na mahilig magluto ang peyrents ko. Si daddy eh masarap magluto ng lutong Ilocano gaya ng pinakbet na may chicharon, simpleng malunggay na may bulaklak ng kalabasa at kung anu-ano pa. While my mom cooks those something like in Western, you know? (Insert that American accent at pataas ang tone nung last 2 words.)

Pero ako, isang palpak sa kusina kaya nga pinagtiya-tiyagaan kong pag-aralan ito. Ayoko namang magutom ang aking magiging wifey pag ikakasal na ako no!

So heto, nagluto ako ng aking adobo:

Ingredients:

4 cloves garlic

1 cup of toyo at suka

1 kilo chicken

1 gram of paminta (Yes, talagang 1 gram lang at kelangan mo itong sukatin)

3 leaves ng laurel (optional, di ko na nilagyan yung sa akin kasi ayoko ng amoy)

1 cellphone (dapat may load kung hindi naka-linya)

1 number ng iyong magulang (pwedeng si daddy o si mommy at dapat reachable sila)

Procedure:

Pag-halu-haluin ang mga ingredients at lagyan ng kaunting tubig. Kapag malapit ng matuyo habang nakasalang, tawagan ang iyong papi o mami at tanungin kung ok na. Dapat ok ang pagdescribe mo sa anyo na ng niluluto kasi baka ito ay hilaw pa o kaya sunog na.

Easy lang di ba? Oh sya, maglalaro muna ako ng plants vs. zombies, ina-atake na ako ng water zombies na nakasakay rubber duckie. Haha!

Bon apetite!

QQ #01

2010-08-20T02:36:00.000+08:00

When was the last time you fell in love?

You know that it's the right love but apparently, you have to take separate ways because you have to consider some certain circumstances.

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Masarap Magmahal

2010-08-09T20:50:00.001+08:00

Nagpapa-antok na ako habang nagbabasa ng blog nung napadaan ako sa post ni Roanne. Masarap daw maging single. Ay naku aprub na aprub ako sa mga sinabi nya... pero noon yan! Ahahaha!

Kaya on the contrary of Roanne's post eh magbibigay naman ako ng dahilan kung bakit masarap ang may hubby/wifey o anumang tawag nyo sa isa't-isa:

Masarap sa pakiramdam kung may magtatanong sau at mangangamusta ay the end of the day.

Masarap kumain na may kasama lalung-lalo na kig kasalo mo ang mahal mo. Ang simpleng ulam eh nagiging bonggang-bongga. Lol!

Mas mahimbing ang tulog kung may kayapos ka, unless, madumi ang pag-iisip mo na gaya ni Drake, Jepoy at Glentot! Hahaha!

Masaya pag naglalakad ka na tipong HHWW na may PSSP o kaya naman kaakbay.

Kung umuulan, ok lang na mabasa kayong dalawa kasi iisa lang ang payong nyo, yubg maliit pa.

Masarap sa pakiramdam ang pagpa-plano ng future- pamilya, sariling bahay, etc.

Masayang magbakasyon lalu na kung kayong dalawa lang. Parang honeymoon kumbaga.

Sabi nga ni Roanne na masarap maging single, oo, aminado ako dun kasi madaming bagay ang pwede mong gawin. Pero masarap pa din naman ang may partner sa buhay, sing-sarap ng luto ni Nanay (connection?!). Hehehe

PS: tinatamad na akong mag-blog pero kating-kati naman akong magsulat. Ano daw?!!!

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RIDE WITH THE WAVES

2010-06-27T14:29:00.002+08:00

Sometimes it leaves you bleeding.
Sometimes it gives you swollen cuts.
You can't barely walk after your first fall.
Waves come and go and they over power you and drag you to the shore.
Exhausted.

You will lost counting how many times you fall. But the best part is you will be more eager to stand up and try again.

The more you bleed, the stronger you become. The more you get hurt, the more you want to face the bigger challenge.

And yes, after a few more try, I am able to stand up and able to ride the challenge.

I'm beginning to love this sport. Try it for yourself and enjoy the ride! Laoag is just an hour away from Manila by plane or when you opt to travel by bus, it will take an overnight on the road so choose those Super de Luxe to make yourself comfortable. And from Laoag, take a bus or van from the city for a one and a half ride to Gaoa, Pagudpud (this is other one from Saud Beach) or just tell the driver to drop you at the unloading area going to blue lagoon.

Take a tricycle just waiting at the drop off point and tell the driver to take you at Wally's World Homestay.

For only p350/person, you'll get to enjoy a peaceful and adventurous retreat of Pagudpud. ;-)

Contact Wally @ +63 921 2752340 and just tell that I referred you to him (malay mo may discount. hehe). Wally also provides surfing lessons for beginners at P200-300 (inclusive of surf board).

*published through Blogspace.

KAFFE RAZZO

2010-06-17T19:01:00.021+08:00

I was on my way to office on that early afternoon of Tuesday when Edsel (Kuya Chinggoy) called me confirming if I can go this Saturday (excited much?) on the soft-opening of his new coffee-resto shop. I confirmed that I will but not sure though of the time because of some work concerns. But to be honest, I am excited too about the event, food-tasting, a few chit-chats with friends and time to be introduced with new faces.

Come Saturday, as we stepped on Edsel's coffee shop, he greeted Ahmer and I with his wide smile (sales person na sales person ang dating! hehe). Anyway, he asked us immediately what we want- drinks or food. The temperature outside is so hot so we dig into some refreshments:

Mocha Frappucino :)

Sinfully refreshing!

Pandan de Nata! Deadly!

Pandan tea with nata on top is a must! I really recommend this one! The sweet taste the pandan and the twist of nata is a deady (and perfect) combination!

I thought that the café is only a coffee shop until Edsel asked if we're hungry already and then the staffs presented to us this bunch of mouth watering dishes J

Dory fish fillet (My favorite!)

Fried Chicken Fillet

Breaded porkchop

Mongolian Rice

Lumpiang Sariwa (must try too!)

Everybody's favorite - SISIG!!!

Chicken Teriyaki

You may think that the foods they serve are pricey but looking on the menu board, it's very affordable and fits within the budget comparing with other cafes. Their fraps also are almost half the price with Starbucks and Coffee Bean but have the same quality and taste!

menu board

With the added personal touch from the owner and staffs, you'll surely enjoy your stay in Kaffe Razzo. :)

the Kaffe Razzo Family

kung ang Jollibee at Mcdo ay may mascot, meron din sila! LOL!

Kaming mga PG na pinakain. haha!

Trivia: The store's name Kaffe Razzo is derived from its small space but cozy enough to enjoy the food and share stories with your friends and families.

Pahabol! Kaffe Razzo can be found between UERM and Caltex Station along Aurora Blvd. Limang tumbling, dalawang cartwheel and isang somersault lang ang layo nya from SM Sta. Mesa. :)

Thanks Edsel for the invitation! Hanggang sa uulitin! :)

NO TITLE

2010-06-06T15:28:00.002+08:00

My work schedule lately was one of the things that I didn't expect nor wished to come. Spending most of my time in the office is a hell though I don't regret on it.

That's why when I saw that I will have a 2 weekends for me to get offline, I grabbed the opportunity. I literally plugged off my computer and didn't bother to open my email. Hello, can I have my me-time as well?

Two weekends away from keyboard = two uncover weekends. It was a blast! And it became more memorable when some confessions made (well, that's another story. Haha)

Anyway, this is just an "alis-agiw" post this mid-year and I'm not sure if I can post more this month as my client is having the FYE kaya windang kaming lahat.

I'll be back for more.

P.S. Ahmer, Amae and I have a scheduled flight to Laoag this coming June 17-21. I expect that this will be another unsober getaway. Excited much with the surfing, I hope the weather will be on our side. :)

IT'S A TOUGH LIFE

2010-05-21T00:14:00.004+08:00

Today, I realized that I am no robot. The stress brought up by my personal problems, and somewhat lack of sleep and rest has already taken its toll. I broke down and feel so tired.

Around five o'clock this morning while in front of my laptop, I suddenly felt a sting pain on my chest while breathing. It's alarming that I cannot breathe a full air anymore. I ran to the pantry to drink water thinking that it would ease the pain, but it only made it worse.

I sat in front of the sink as I saw my officemate with blur sight. I thought I'm dying. I shed tear.

As minutes passed by, I can slowly feel relief in breathing. Sinus tach is the culprit as this has already happened to me last year. It's the fast palpitation of the heart as a result of exercise, excessive stress, anxiety and fatigue. But the chest pain, the weakening of my body and the abnormal breathing is not a good sign.

I know this is already the repercussions of taking too much of these anxieties and problems which is building up inside me which I need to take a rest and slow down a bit.

But I hope, this, too, shall pass.

TRUST

2010-05-17T01:46:00.003+08:00

Trust is the hardest thing to earn yet easiest to lose.

Once a person gave you that trust, keep it and take care of it.

PRIORITIES

2010-05-15T13:52:00.001+08:00

Nakita nyo naman siguro sa previous post ko kung gaano ka-demanding ang work ko sa oras. Ngayong weekend na to eh halos puro work na ang aking kakaharapin.

Nung nasabi ko sa mga friends ko about my schedule over the weekend eh heto lang ang mga nasabi nila:

"Kaya pala single ka eh kasi sobrang busy mo sa work!" o "Buti hindi ka iniiwan ng syota mo?"

Sa totoo lang, ako din nagugulat na din kasi minsan medaling araw na o kaya may araw na ako nakakauwi mula sa office at papasok ng tanghali kinabukasan. Walang kaso yun sa akin kasi mahal ko naman trabaho ko. Pero iisa lang din naman ang sagot ko sa mga tanong nila:

"Kahit sobrang busy man ako sa trabaho ko, I make sure to have time with my wifey. Kung may spare time ako, sa kanya ko lahat binubuhos di na baleng walang pahinga kasi masaya akong kasama sya."

Ganun lang naman siguro kasimple ang explanation kung bakit kahit na sobrang demanding ang work eh hindi pa din ako nawawalan ng oras para sa partner. It's just how we are going to prioritize things.

At isa pa, bago ako pumasok sa isang relasyon, kelangan ko munang alalahanin na sana naiiintindihan ni partner ang magiging sitwasyon, na sana hindi nya pagselosan ang trabaho ko kasi sa bandang huli, ito ang mambubuhay sa amin. (Naks! Gumaganun?!) J tsaka pala, hindi I'm just a text away from her naman kaya open ang communications naming.

Anyway highway, dahil sa medyo busy-busyhan eh kelangan kong bumawi sa kanya. Hmmm ano kaya magandang idea? Hehe.

HOW I LOVE MY WORK (NO PUN INTENDED)

2010-05-15T01:43:00.005+08:00

Yes, I am dead serious with the title. So in these next few days, I'll give my full support on her because she's my top priority like a wife giving birth to our first son. As you can see the time listed, I'll be round-the-clock beside her. :)

(meeting schedules)

I'll try to post more after we get settled. :)

PILLOW TALK

2010-05-07T20:50:00.013+08:00

I bought this pillow just for the sake of something I can rest on my head if we go beyond the wee hours working in the office.

But I didn't notice what's written until I opened the bag:

"with our thoughts we create our world"

I just thought that this is one of the reasons why I write and blog, and creating my world with people who can freely evolve into it.

nakigaya si partner, pinili nya brown. echoserang palaka sya.

RELATIONSHIPS AND APOLOGIES

2010-05-02T16:00:00.001+08:00

This is an emo post. If you get suffocated with such things on emoness, better skip this and move on with other's posts.

Ang pagpasok sa isang relasyon ay hindi parang kanin na mainit na kung isinubo mo ay pwede mo lang iluwa. There are things needed to consider before getting committed like the personality of your partner, their background and your feeling is right as well.

Yet, when already involved in a relationship, madami din kailangang tandaan para maging matibay ang inyong pagsasama. I want to share three pointers here that think might help you in building a stronger relationship.

Learn to say sorry and forgive. If you know that you hurt the feelings of your partner, say sorry immediately. Iwasang patagalin ang mga misunderstandings kasi the more na pinatagal mo ito ay mas lalo itong magiging complicated at baka mas mahirapan kayong solusyonan ang problema. On the other hand, learn how to forgive. If your partner asked for forgiveness, give in. You will know if he/she is sincere when they say sorry. Ibaba ang pride kasi walang nagagawa ang pride, mas lalo lang magkakaroon ng gap between the two of you kung mahirap kang magpatawad.
Tell your partner about your true feelings. Being open on your feelings in any kind of relationship is vital. Kung galit or naiinis ka, sabihin mo and be transparent. Hindi manghuhula ang partner mo kaya mas ok sabihin ang totoong nararamdaman. Kung may kinikimkim kang inis sa kanya at hindi mo ito sinabi ay wala itong magagawa. Para lang itong anay na bubuwagin ang inyong relasyon. Keep communications also both open. Alam nating lahat na napakahalaga ang communication sa isa't isa.
Tell them or show them how much you love them before it's too late. I was not a "showy" person before. Naiirita ako sa unang girlfriend ko noon kasi lagi nyang sinasabi kung gaano nya ako kamahal. Hindi ako sweet na tao kaya ayoko ng mga ganun. Until we found out that she has leukemia. That was the turning point for me, I realized nagkamali ako. I had only very little time to show and tell her how much I love her. Nagsisisi ako kung bakit hinayaan kong palampasin ang napakadaming pagkakataon na sabihin sa kanya. Kaya nung sumunod kong relasyon ay lagi ko ng sinasabi kung gaano ko sila kamahal.

I hope that someday she's going to read this post. I want her to know how much I love her and I'm willing to do everything to make our relationship go stronger. I know she's mad at me now that's why I am asking for forgiveness. I hope that she's still willing to fix the problem I made and I am begging her if we can sit and talk about this one.

I have plans on us already. I want to build a family with her, a home where we can stay forever. I want to be beside her until my last breathe.

If you're going to read this, please accept my apologies and let's start anew. I love you very much; you're the one who taught me how to love again after being broken. I don't want to lose you and I hope you still do.

ONE GOOD DAY COMING UP!

2010-04-30T03:06:00.004+08:00

This is my mantra for a couple of days already.

When we started the last yet critical stages of our project, instead of frowning, I stayed very optimistic on it. In that way, I'm sure I'll stay on track and gain more good vibes.

True enough that during these days, I received good news and positive results aside from a pat on the back and a high five from my officemates.

First, two of my close friends received a job offer. One of them will pursue his career on the academe. I know that he will become a good and well-respected professor because he's competent yet humble person. The other one will be working with one of the telecommunication giants in the country. Good enough for him to stay in the city instead of going home in CDO and burn his ass off.

Moving on to the other good news, green is the new red in our project. We are already on-track and it means we're closer to finally closing the project. Aside from that, I gained friends which I don't even know how they look like because of the project. We just interact through emails and chats. A simple smiley and a "thank you, mwahugs" included in the message closes the gap between the status of friendship and colleagues.

Third, my dad got involved (again) in a road accident last Thursday. According to my mom, one of her friends told her that dad was soooo drunk and drove to Pagudpud on his motorcycle alone. No one knows where the accident happened because my dad can't even recall due to excessive drunkenness. We can't even contact those people who helped him and brought him home safe. Thank God that he only got minor injuries like scratch on his legs and arms. I don't know what churns up his mind when he's drunk. Actually, this is his fifth accident because of driving under the influence of alcohol.

I hope before the week ends, I will receive better news.

Now I realized that nothing really happens if I stay negative because of stress and the likes. That's why I want to tell you that despite of the all the negativities that surround us, don't get yourself too much affected and stay positive instead. Grab all those good vibes and you will attract affirmative results.

A WEEKEND GETAWAY

2010-04-26T01:10:00.003+08:00

Para maiba naman ang araw ko besides sa puro work na lang ang aking ginagawa ay nagpunta kami sa Tagaytay with my college barkada.

Ilang beses na namin itong ni-plano pero hindi matuloy-tuloy dahil sa mga sari-sariling lakad. Kaya nung napagkasunduang i-boycott ang mga sariling lakad ngayong Linggo ay napagkasunduan naming lumbas.

Syempre, dahil mainit ang panahon at ang pinakamalapit na lugar na pwedeng puntahan ay ang Thaghaythay (ala Jepoy).

Kilala ako sa barkada na mahilig sa extremes. Reverse extreme bungee, The Abyss at skydiving, iyan lang ang ilan sa mga nasubukan ko na. At since nung makita ko ang Tagaytay Zipline ay go na go na ako.

Heto ang kuha kong video habang naka-suspend sa zipline :)

PARA MAY MASABI LANG

2010-04-22T01:18:00.005+08:00

Pasensya na mga kapatid. pahirapan kasi ang pagkita ng pera kaya hindi na ako nakakadalaw sa mga blog nyo. Sinisigawan na nga ako ng Google Reader ko kasi andami-dami ko ng backBlog. Sisikapin kong makadalaw sa weekend kasi party party nanaman kasi.

At ganun nga talaga pag may SO na, medyo di na masyadong makakapag-update mostly nakalaan sa kanya ang oras. hihihi!

Paya ngayon, go lang at mag-slide slide at hop hop sa mga blog muna.

I shall return! :)

KAKA-STRESS KA!

2010-04-15T01:28:00.003+08:00

Pag umuuwi ako galing office sakay ng taxi gabi-gabi eh madalas MGE (kelangang kong maningil ng ad fee dito. Hehe) taxi kasi ang pinipili ko dahil safe at walang kontrata. Kaso naman, laging nakatutok yung driver sa iisang radio station.

Lagi na lang eh nakikinig dun sa parang rated-PG na program sa isang FM station, yung jologs station sya eh. Madalas kasi ang usapan eh puro kalibugan na ewan. May tumatawag sa telepono at syempre entertain to the max ang DJ hanggang sa mauwi sa kwentong kamunduhan ang topic. Di sa nagmamalinis pero kasi wala talagang kakwenta-kwenta ang pinaguusapan, napaka-UNintellectual. Mga tipong ang words eh part ng body na hinalintulad sa "alkansya" o kaya "push-the-button" at "banana."

Kagabi, kakaiba naman ang caller. Isang graduate ng high school sa valenzuela at papasok na sya ng UE caloocan sa susunod na school year. Umiiyak ampota kasi baka daw iwanan sya ng bf nya na uber wafu daw na papasok pa lang ng 4th high school. Ayaw daw nilang maghiwalay. Ampota ambabaw nya, pukashells nyang emo.

Kaya humingi sya ng advice sa DJ kung dapat ba syang tumuloy ng college kasi ayaw nyang magkalayo sila. At baka daw kung sakaling pumasok sya sa college eh mahumaling ang bwakaninang jowa na uber wafu daw sa ibang babae. Eh bwakaninang anong klaseng pag-uutak yan?! Uminit lang ang dugo ko. Napakababaw nya. Kung pwede lang sumabat at sabihing tumalon na lang kaya sya mula sa mga nagtataasang billboards sa guadalupe.

Ganun na ba kababaw ang paguutak ng mga kabataan ngayon? Nagiging emoterang froglette na sila? Sa totoo lang eh naiirita ako sa mga taong ganyan. Yung iba naman eh may tipong suicidal attitude.

Hay kung sabihin ko ding sabihin sa kanya na hiwalayan nya ang jowa nya kasi wala syang tiwala sa kanya. At kung ayaw nyang tumuloy ng college dahil sa college eh tumalon na lang sya sa ilog sa guadalupe tapos magpakalunod. Sinasayang lang nya ang kanyang buhay eh.

Pasensya na mga kapatid. Stressed kasi ako sa work tapos ganun pa ang maririnig mo kasi sa radyo.

***

At bago matapos ang araw na to, may isang balita nanaman kaming natanggap sa office. Ang tax namin na dating 15% eh magiging 32% na. Pukashells talaga! Wala ng matitira! :'(

UNTITLED

2010-04-13T01:22:00.005+08:00

"What coffee do you want so I can order while waiting?" I asked you through text.

"Mocha caramel would be nice," you replied.

"Ok, I'll get you one hot cup since it's raining outside?" I asked again.

"Sure! I'll be there in 10 minutes…"

I am shaking this early afternoon. The mix of emotions is fleeting that I cannot cast a single sane thought.

This is it. After months of waiting, I can now see you face-to-face. I long to see you on this day, your smile, your voice, your eyes, your hands holding mine, you're everything, I want them to witness before me.

"I'm already here at the ground floor. I'll be there in a few. I'm so excited to see you and hug you finally."

My heart skipped a beat. My face turned red and I can feel the blood rush from my heart to my veins. I'm so clueless how things will turn out once you see me.

"Okay. I'm excited too but also afraid a bit. I don't know how you will react if you see me. I'll remove my glasses so I won't see you coming and if ever you'll get disappointed, you can run away…" I told you.

Hence, I removed my eyeglasses as what I told you. I am shivering and sweating. I am praying that hopefully everything will be right. I flew to Manila last night to see you and just in time as visit the city for a business trip. Like what I promised to you, I'll try to cross oceans and continents only to be with you, because you complete my other half.

"Hey, andito na ko." I looked at the person in front of me. There I saw you smiling and your arms wide open waiting for a hug.

I threw my arms toward you and hugged you tightly. This is what I wanted to feel. And finally, I whispered in your right ear, "Mahal na mahal po kita, buti dumating ka na…"

Starbucks EDSA Shangri-La. June 6, 2009.

I chanced upon my defunct blog and saw this post that I didn't publish because I wasn't brave enough to do. I can still remember that day where I felt I was the happiest man on earth. And without any clue, all our hopes and dreams will be shattered in just few days…

HOWEVER, as I read this post, though I can still remember you, the feeling I have before is now forgotten. I already started a clean slate and I am thankful that I found someone who completes me.

TRY TO STEP ON MY SHOES

2010-04-11T12:05:00.002+08:00

Last Friday, I finally let my old pair of leather shoes retire after buying a new one (naks! Bago ang sapatos ko ngayon. Hehehe)

I used my old pair for three years which was a day before my graduation. Ilang beses na din akong nagplanong bumili ng bago noon pa pero iniisip ko kasi ang budget. Pero ganun nga yata talaga kasi napabili ako ng wala sa oras nung nagpunta ako ng SM San Lazaro para manood lang ng Clash of the Titans.

Anyways, malaki ang sentimental value ng sapatos na to kaya hindi ko ma-dispose-dispose. Ito ang mga reasons kung bakit:

This is the last pair of shoes which my mom bought for me kasi gagraduate na ako at sarili ko ng pera ang pambibili ko sa susunod.
This pair of shoes is the one who walked with me from the aisle to the stage and get my medal and diploma. Naks kelangang isingit ang medal. Lol!
They are the witness how hard to look for a job. I was with them walking along the busy avenue of Ayala under the scorching heat of the sun with full of hopes searching a place to start my career.
Nung na-offshore ako eh sila pa din ang kasama ko kahit na nakikita ko nang bumubuka na yung isa sa pares. Nahihiya ako nung mag-cross legs kasi makikita ng katabi ko sa plane na bumubuka na sya pero keri lang.
Minsan umulan, di ko napansin na may butas na pala yung isang pair kaya hayun, drenched sa murky water ang medyas ko pagdating sa office.
Three years, three jobsm, and I am glad that they're still with me as I climb through the corporate ladder.

Nung makita ko sa store yung sapatos nung Sabado, parang pakiramdam ko na tinatawag na nya ako para kunin. Napaisip ako kasi meron ba akong budget? Naisip ko din na malapit na ang tag-ulan at ayoko ng mabasa ng medyas ko. Haha. Kaya ipinikit ko na lang ang mata ko sabay swipe swipe ng ATM sa cashier.

Siguro nga panahon na para ibalik sa karton yung luma kong sapatos at pagpahingahin at gamitin naman ang bago. Parang new beginnings lang ulit, some things are needed to change to make you better.

GOOD VIBES

2010-04-01T04:25:00.015+08:00

	Chicane - Spirit .mp3

	Found at bee mp3 search engine

*patugtugin ang kanta, pang-GV lang habang umiinom ng ice-cold beer sa tabing dagat. :)

Dahil napagod ang inyong lingkod sa kakatrabaho ng diretsong dalawang linggo (yes, nagtrabaho din ako nung weekend except nung sabeerday dahil nagpunta kami ng Tahghaythay) eh kailangan ko munang magbakasyon to shrug off my BV's. Kailangan ko ng pahinga! Kailangan ko nga katahimikan! At higit sa lahat, kailangan ko ng BEACH!

Basta, kailangan ko lang ngayon ay isang bonggang bonggang GV para mapaghandaan ang susunod na linggo na puro trabaho ang babalikan.

HAVE A BLESSED WEEK EVERYONE!

Random, wag kang mainip kung wala akong post! Ikaw nga ang di nagpapakita dyan eh! Hmpf! :D

HUGS PLEASE

2010-03-24T22:15:00.002+08:00

This is just a short post…

I REALLY NEED A WARM HUG NOW… PLEASE… :(

A NO-GOOD POST

2010-03-22T22:04:00.006+08:00

I am really getting bothered with my sleeping habits. It is already six in the morning and I'm still wide awake. I already tried every lane of my bed but still I can't find the road to dreamland. What even bothers me more, it's Monday and I'll be working 'til midnight.

Since, I don't want to get idle, I resorted to make kwento how my weekend went. This is just my hangover. I cannot think of any good post, writer's block huh?

I woke up Saturday afternoon. Wanting to go out of my apartment while there's still the sun in the horizon, I went online to invite someone for a dinner -err breakfast or have some coffee. There I found Glentot on facebook. We met for a coffee until the whole gang arrived, as usual, Jepoy's late.

Though my weekend was a blur, I still enjoyed the company of my friends- Jepoy, Glentot, YJ, and Citybuoy. Stories shared over a cup of coffee plus the spirit of san mig light were enough to cap off the week. Around 3 in the morning, we decided to go separate ways.

Then yesterday, I went out to see The Book of Eli on the big screen, which Glentot recommended. How loser am I to watch alone. It's a good movie; it talked about greed of power. The story was simple. Eli has this book and it's the only copy left after the war. And there's this villain who's searching for this book and at all cost, he did everything just to get it- he slayed and tortured people. He thinks that this will give him the power to rule the land. And in the end, he found out that this book was written in Braille and he can't read it.

Anyway, I'm not really good in doing a movie review. I don't to spoil the story and I want the audience to ruminate on how the story unfolds.

There, I'm done with this post and good enough, I can already see zzzzzland.

Goodnight!

I LEFT MY HEART IN CEBU

2010-03-19T04:33:00.012+08:00

Nag-stay ako sa Cebu last year ng 7 months dahil sa isang project. Yung pitong buwan na yun ay madami din akong na-experience na doon ko lang din naranasan (READ: wholesome experience). Kabalo ko na pud mag-Bisaya pero gamay ra. Sakto ba? Hehe.

Habang nasa Cebu ako eh syempre di ko pinalagpas ang pagkakataon na mamasyal sa probinsya. Kahit medyo mas mainit sya sa Maynila eh ma-eenjoy mo din ang lugar. Since wala akong masyadong mai-kwento dun eh I'll just let some of the pictures do the talking. :)

ang pag-emo ni Ate sa bukang liwayway

Camotes Islands... isla na kung saan wala akong nahanap na camoteque

starfish!

ang sexy ko syet! (Sa Mactan island)

ang makulay pero uber crowded na Sinulog

ang pag-akyat ko sa bundok ng tralala

sa tops kung saan masarap maglandian kasi madilim at malamig

sinful and deadly warm brownie cup ng Le Marea

despedida ko kasama mga client ko :(

At bilang sidetrip eh hindi ko din pinalampas ang mangapit-isla sa Bohol. hehe

kasama ko si Mudrakels kasi bday gift ko yung trip sa kanya (bongga di ba?).
at simple lang, maganda sya kaya gwapo ako. hehehe

I suddenly miss Cebu, the food, the people and the place itself. Makabalik nga dun one of these days. Sino gustong sumama?

MY 25 CENTAVO’S WORTH

2010-03-17T03:36:00.004+08:00

I took the express elevator on our office building to reach our floor faster. The first stop of the elevator is on the 15^th and we're on the 14^th so I have to take the stairs. While I was on the stairs, I chanced upon this 25 centavos on one of its steps.

I took it and put inside my pocket. Napaisip ako at oo, nag-emo emo ako dahil sa baryang yun. Wala na bang halaga ang bent'singko sa mga madlang people ngayon at parang itinatapon na lang? I have this perspective that every penny counts. It means a lot for me especially when I think of our situation during my childhood years.

Lumaki ako sa isang mahirap na bayan sa probinsya ng Ilocos Norte. Simple lang, payak ang pamumuhay ikanga (syet medyo malalim yun ah, di ko kineri). I grew up without a family computer, Atari or Nintendo. Hanggang ngayon nga eh ni-PSP or Wii eh wala. We used to have blocks of woods which came from those houses that were under construction. We imagine them as trucks or toy cars. We seldom have toys bought from the department store. Lobo nga lang eh masaya na kami, at mas masaya pa kung yung laruan eh yung may mga manok na tumutuka habang umiikot yung isang itlog na sinlaki ng holen sa baba.

We also tried having tuyo as our dish for a month. At dahil medyo maarte ako, pinagdidiskitahan ko na lang yung Milo na ulamin. I know medyo mapalad na kami na nag-uulam ng tuyo kesa naman sa wala. I always imagined of hotdogs and pork and beans that time. I thought that those processed foods will be enough for me to live until I grow old. Di ako magsasawang ulamin sila.

Come kindergarten years, I only have a piso as my baon. Although that was around 1993, yung piso na yun eh sapat na para bumili ng zoom-zoom o kaya cheez-um o dalawang cheese hotdog na chichirya para pantawid gutom. Medyo may kamahalan na sila ngayon. During those times, we used to walk more than a kilometer going to school and we have to do that once in the morning, twice during noontime because we go home for lunch and another flight in the afternoon. I was so dark. We have to brave the scorching heat of the sun because we can't afford a 2 peso fare for a jeep ride.

When I was entered elementary, my mom brought me to a private school. Medyo naging ok naman na konti ang kalagayan naming nun. Pero yung allowance ko eh nasa dalawang piso lang. Sapat na para pambili ng palamig o buko juice sa canteen kasi may dala-dala naman akong bread na ang palaman ay peanut butter. Nagsasawa na din ako nyan nun. Nagdidiwang na ako nun pag nakabili ako ng Chippy na tig-3 piso pa ata nun.

May time pa na minsan eh walang maibigay si Nanay na baon so she'll just give me banana as my snack. Hiyang-hiya ako nun kapag recess na at hindi ako mapakali kung papano ko kakainin yung saging. Yung mga classmates ko kasi eh bibili sa canteen ng mga Chippy o kaya yung tig-5 na pansit. Kaya ang ginagawa ko, pumupunta ako sa kadulu-duluhan ng playground para kainin yun. Di ko naman kasi matiis ang gutom ko. Yung faucet na lang din ang last resort ko na panulak. Minsan napapaluha ako nun na sana din a lang ako sa private school.

Kaya nung papasok ako ng high school eh pinilit ko ang nanay ko na sa balik na lang ulit ako sa public school. Pinag-awayan pa namin yun at iniyakan ko. I know the dilemma of going to a private again, how much more criticisms will I receive. But all of those reasons, sabi ko na lang sa nanay ko na para makatipid sila sa akin. Pinagbigyan naman nila ako. I prioritized my studies when I was in high school and dreamed of becoming one of the honor graduates. I wished to enter UP or be a scholar in a university. Lahat ginawa ko, nagsumikap. Pero sadyang mailap ata ang dream na yun pero at least eh nakasama ako sa star section. Hehe.

Heto na, college na. Di nga ako nakapasa sa UP Diliman at ayoko naman sa Visayas. Dili ko ganahan mag-aral didto, layo man sa family at dili ko pa kabalo mag-bisaya. Sinabi sa akin ng nanay ko na igagapang na lang daw nila ang pag-aaral ko basta magsumikap lang ako. Kaya pinasok nila ulit ako sa isang private school na di ko inaakalang papasukan ko sya. Ay no, di na naming keri sa Green Pasture at sa Blue Sky, mahal na masyado. Baka di na kami kakain nyan basta makapag-aral lang ako.

Binalak ko mang mag-part time noon eh pinagbawalan daw ako. Naawa din kasi ako sa parents ko na laki ng ginagastos sa akin. Umiiyak ako nun pag malapit na ang bayaran ng tuition fees kasi alam ko kung gaano kahirap maghagilap ng pambayad. Kaya talagang nagsumikap na lang ako sa pag-aaral. Iniwasan kong magka-syota (kaya talagang virgin pa ako nun, haha) para lang focus ako sa studies ko. At salamat sa Diyos eh pumasa naman at grumaduate on-time. At kung ano man ang nakuha ko noong graduation eh inaalay ko sa aking magulang. Hindi para sa akin yung diplomang yun kundi para sa kanila.

Kaya ngayong may trabaho na ako ay hindi ko pa din nakakalimutan kung paano ako nagsimula, kung gaano kaliit ang mabibili mng bawat barya ay mahalaga para sa akin. Pinupulot ko kung may makita ako at iniipon ito kasi sa darating na araw eh lalaki din ang halaga nila.

O bonggang bongga ang kwento ko di ba? Dahil lang sa bentsinko na yun eh nagkaroon ako ng moments at nakagawa pa ng napakahabang post ng talambuhay ko? Sino kaya ang makakapagbasa ng napakabang ito? Hahaha!

Napost ko itong emo-shit na'to dahil sa malahayup na istorya ng buhay ni Pareng Drake! ;-)

WAITING FOR SUNRISE

2010-03-15T02:51:00.008+08:00

Sunday. March 14, 2010. FB status: Waiting for sunrise @ Puerto Galera (11F/SMPC)

I haven't tried spending more 18 than hours in the office until yesterday. The last time I did this was only 15 hours when I was out of the country for a project.

Now here's the catch, I went home Saturday around 5 in the morning and then decided to continue my work later that afternoon. I am a deadline beater kaya pinanghahawakan ko yun, by hook or by crook. After a barely 5 hours of sleep, I forced myself to wake up. Tang'na lang di ba? sabog sabog na lang!

Around 12, I started to prepare for office. I sent a text message to my paknerthat I'm leaving our house already and I'll just have my breakfast in the office. Parang tanga lang, 1pm breakfast?!

pakner at the war room

Hayun, once I arrived in the office, I searched for a war room, I opened my laptop, grabbed a cup of coffee sa pantry and started my work until my pakner arrived. I was expecting that I'll be done around 10-ish ng gabi. Pero yung akala ko eh isang malaking pagkakamali.

We had my lunch around midnight then nung magutom ng mga 3am, naghanap kami ulit ng makakainan. Unang puntirya namin ay yung McDonald's sa El Pueblo. Putragis sarado na pala so we opted to walk further until we reached another McDonald's somewhere in the Emerald. Sakto, medyo madaming tao kaya di kami masyadong mabored. Napag-isip ko, madami na palang call centers sa may part na yun ng Ortigas kaya hindi parang Dawn of the Dead ang lugar na walang katao-tao.

pakner tapped-out around 4-ish

Then we went back to the office. I was so exhausted already that I hardly process the things I should be doing. Parang computer lang ako na sobrang daming fragments na kailangan ng i-defrag. Kahit anong gawin kong CTRL+ALT+DEL eh naghahang pa din ako ng paulit-ulit. I went downstairs to breathe the polluted air. But before that, pinagbalingan ko pa ng inis ko dun sa elevator kasi sobrang tagal dumating. I puffed two sticks ng Marlboro Black at hayun, medyo high na ako at bumalik na ako sa room.

4am… blaring silence…

5am… may dumaan na eroplano at nagsisimula na ang araw ng mga tao.

the ball of fire started to shine on this Sunday morning

6am… nagmumura na ako kasi nakikita ko na ang liwanag.

7am… I started to formulate my email telling my client how cruel they are. Haha! I kid! I kid!

8am… brain freeze after so many times of rebooting with 3 cups of Americano.

I went to the CR to wash my fucking oily face na pwedeng pagprituhan ng itlog at porkchop. Parang nakakita din ako ng lalaking naka-drugs with matching red eyes. Shit shit shit! Natakot ako kaya pumunta ako agad sa room, closed my laptop, placed it on my bag, grabbed all the chords and packed up.

Sigh! Kung di ko lang mahal ang work ko eh di ko ito matatagalan. Pero yun eh, parang ikinasal na ako sa kanya and I'm getting more in love with her everyday. Tsaka sinasanay ko na din sarili ko kasi ganito daw talaga ang magiging schedule ko pagpasok ko sa showbiz! hahaha! :)

AFRAID OF THE DARK

2010-03-12T20:55:00.010+08:00

Hindi ko na nadatnan ang aking kapatid pagdating ko sa bahay kaninang madaling-araw galing sa office. Sabi ko, "Wohoo! Pagkakataon ko na sh*t!" Wala akong bantay kaya medyo masaya-saya ako kasi magagawa ko kahit anong gusto ko. Haha

Pero syempre di ko naman alam na umalis ang kapatid ko papuntang Pangasinan kaya di ako nakapag-uwi ng chikas. Napag-isipan kong matulog na lang kasi pagod din ako sa work at may meeting pa ako mamayang hapon. Magulo ang room na nadatnan ko kaya inayos ko pa ng konti.

Nung tapos na sa pag-ayos eh yun na, ready to fly na ako sa dreamland. Pinatay ko na ang ilaw at humiga. Konting paikot-ikot sa kama para maging komportable. Nung ok na ako, naisip ko pucha angdilim!

Nagsitayuan ang mga balahibo ko. Hindi lamig ang dahilan! Natatakot ako. Waaah ayokong may magpakita sa akin kaya nagtakip na lang ako ng kumot.

Di na pala ako sanay na mag-isa sa bahay. Nyemas, nerbiyos at takot ang nasa isip ko. Ni hindi nga tumatayo si *toot* (Haha! Ang halay!) kapag takot ako eh.

*Sigh* Sana bumalik agad ang kapatid galing sa lamyerda nila o kaya makahanap ng sasama sa akin! Kaya ang siste, pinagtiisan ko na lang ang flashlight na ginawa kong dim light. Hayun, ubos ang battery.

Galing dito ang image: http://images.dpchallenge.com/images_challenge/0-999/467/800/Copyrighted_Image_Reuse_Prohibited_309644.jpg

TOP 5 WISHES

2010-03-10T13:39:00.003+08:00

I already posted this on my facebook account sometime last year. I chanced on this survey, got interested on it and so I took.

The question is what are my top 5 birthday wishes. Since wish naman siya, I gave an answer and some of them eh may kahirapan sa pagtupad.

1. I want to go to Tokyo and northern Japan when spring comes. During this time, cherry blossoms bloom and cover the pavements with its petals. Of course, I want to be with my significant other.

2. A sky dive on the vast land of Australia, have a picture with the koalas and kroos. Someone even promised me to try this with me.

3. I want to fly to New York and have a bite with the big apple.

4. I want a latest camera on my birthday. See? I'm a travel bug. I want to see the world and i want to put them into printed memories so in later time, I can go back and look how far I have gone.

5. This is the most important on my wishes. It's a ring, a wedding ring. And there in the description, I put the word YOU.

I'll be turning 24 in the next few months. Though I'm not in the rush of searching YOU, I'm not closing my doors of finding her soon. Besides, I'm enjoying on my current status, single.

H BLOCK

2010-03-09T02:03:00.011+08:00

A view of the sunset from where I seated.

H block is my new home away from home. It's my new place to test my wits, to grow my career, and to earn for a living.

I transferred here last year. Sabi nga nila, isang malaking pagbabago ulit ang kakaharapin ko. That's why when I came here, I was looking for a comfortable place to fit it. It's not only the view on the outside but also the people I'm going to interact with during my entire stay.

H Block is as cold as Siberia. We have the coldest place in the office. A jacket is a must, or else you'll end up having pneumonia. Possibly because the block is quite smaller than with the rest blocks in the office. Also, we're only a few residing in this block.

H Block is facing the west direction so the view of the sunset is quite a catch. Around 5:30 in the afternoon, we pull up the blinds to witness the nature's stunning beauty.

During late nights (my shift ends 'til midnight), our colleagues gather around the area. We do few harutan or chismis just to relieve the stress. A few munches also available kaya siguro dinudumog yung block namin.

As part of the new beginning, this place will be a witness of my growth and working with these new people tells me that I don't only have to go to the office to earn money.

NEW BEGINNINGS

2010-03-08T15:22:00.004+08:00

When a thing comes to an end, there comes a new beginning.

Today, I officially deleted my other blog. I don't know if I should call it my blog. I got a feeling that it's not me who's writing on those posts anymore. Pakiramdam ko kasi, hindi na ako yung dating sarili ko. I think I lost him sometime last year and he didn't make a return yet.

Therefore, I braved to cross the blog out.

Now that I am on my new abode, I will start a new beginning. Forget emoness. I cannot contain them already or else, I might get a cardiac arrest in the next few days if I continue to do so. Patawarin nyo na lang yung dalawang nauna kong post. It was the aftershock of the tragedy and unconsciously why I carried them in here.

Anyway, since I said I'll be starting all over again, I want to make this page as sappy as my old self. I'll try to make it light and will avoid shits (READ: TRY). Promise, ayoko na ng mabigat sa dibdib. Hehehe!

I will have a good start this time. Kaya mga pards, isang kampai para sa isang pagbabago.

Welcome!

THE BIRTHDAY PLAN

2010-03-07T23:31:00.001+08:00

I still remember the day that we boarded the Flyer, it's my birthday. It was a fine day but I can't explain the feeling. I was on turmoil because these were our last few days left seeing each other.

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I still have the plane ticket; it was booked on the month of April. It was one of those happiest days, we'll be together in 3 months and eager to hug and kiss you on my birthday.

But things changed. A month before my flight, we broke up. It was so hard and never imagined how will I face the coming days and months alone.

Still, I pursued the planned trip because I want to talk to you face to face. I asked for a closure. I don't know if this was the best or the most stupid thing I did because that day is I always remember.

Until now, I'm still stuck here.

Coffee

2010-03-06T02:41:00.001+08:00

Coffee doesn't only melt cold people's heart, it also connect two lost souls…

THINK OF YOU

2010-03-01T00:39:00.001+08:00

The day I met you, I felt surreal. It was unexplainable. The emotion I had was so right. Thus I jump in without thinking.

It will be nine months since we parted. It was the worst heartbreak I ever had.

Though it's really tough to face the reality, I have to accept it. It was long ago since I thought that already get through it.

But I don't know why when every time I wake up in the morning, every time I have my breakfast, lunch and dinner, every time I'm on my way home after office, every time I go to sleep, I always think of you.

Yes, I still cry sometimes under my pillows. I miss you a lot. I'm thinking if things turned to be alright between us, would I have the chance to pick you up at the airport every time you have a homecoming? Would we still have the chance to eat in a Japanese restaurant? Would there be a chance that I will cook a dinner for the two of us? Would there be a chance that I can cuddle you until daylight? Would there be chance that I'm still going to call you every morning and wake you up or else you'll be late for work?

What if you chose me, do we still have the chance of walking around a road full of cherry blossoms holding each other's hand? Would we still have the chance to get married in oz and take skydive there?

I thought I moved on already. But why I'm still stuck here? Why my heart still beats your name? Why do I still cry thinking of you? Why I can't just move on and forget you? Why do I still think of you?

I don't know if I'm still sane but I still love you that much… and as promised, I will still love you, only from afar.